Si Lapar

Si Lapar

Assalamualaikum

Tengah-tengah bersosial dengan Cik Kelly-jah, leher tiba-tiba sakit. Tak boleh tunduk dan tak boleh dongak. Maka saya terbaring memandang siling. Dan tertidur sepuluh minit. Haha.

Bangun tidur dengan perasaan lapar. Wuuu~ Nak makan. Mana boleh kelaparan. Nanti kurus lah. Tapi sangat jauh dan sangat sejuk nak keluar. Berkira-kira kalau jalan nanti jumlah energy yang diconsume ketika makan boleh lebih kurang sama dengan energy diguna untuk jalan pergi balik. Mana boleh kan? Saya mahu berisi sikit lah. Maka mesti ada lebihan lemak untuk disimpan. Sangat tak boleh membakar semua dengan berjalan. Maka saya bukak purse. Kira duit yang ada. 4 chon won. Ok. Cukup. 2 chon won tambang bas pergi balik. 2 chon won lagi buat makan twigim. Singgah Dunkin Donut beli muffin 2 biji and hot choco, bayar guna kad. Haha. Anyways, naik bas semata-mata ke Chamsari-Gil memang menandakan kemalasan tahap amat lah.

alin: pagi tadi aku ada sesi tengok kapalterbang atas langit dgn adini kat luar rumah pastu bila dia nampak je kapalterbang lalu trus dia jerit "mo!" ym with Alin.

Ok. I'm soooooo going home!

Bear With It

Bear With It

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Nak baca buku Kimia tapi belum ada mood. Nak keluar makan tapi tak tau nak makan apa. Nak keluar jalan-jalan, tapi sejuk. Saya tak suka sendiri. Kerana sendirian macam sangat.. er.. sunyi. Saya suka being around people. Even when we speak nothing and do nothing, the mere presence of other person macam cukup kot.

Akhir-akhir ni sangat sejuk. Dan saya macam dah sangat kurus. Makin kurus. Jangan tanya kenapalah. Not as if saya tak berusaha untuk gemuk. Er well admittedly waktu makan memang langsung tak terjaga. Makan cuma waktu rajin. Waktu malas makan kerepek sudah. Tapi saya telah melancarkan satu polisi baru. Iaitu menaiki elevator sepanjang masa. Haha.

Kalau anda ialah seorang pelajar anda tahu signifikannya polisi tersebut dalam kehidupan seharian. Menaiki elevator adalah penting sebab saya tak mahu membakar lemak mendaki tangga lah. Lagi-lagi bangunan zaman sekarang ni memang dahsyat. Jarak satu tingkat dengan satu tingkat tinggi bagai nak rak. Kalau panjat dari tingkat 1 sampai 4 boleh patah lutut. Jangan kata panjat Innovation Hall tu, dari Hana Square ke ground floor pun sekarang saya naik elevator ja. Tangga Hana Square tu tinggi woo. Lagi-lagi tangga dari Hana Square menghala ke main gate Science Campus. Kalau panjat tu, tahulah nanti kenapa universiti dinamakan menara gading. Wuwuwu.

By the way, saya pernah tanya cikgu kenapa universiti mesti di kawasan berbukit-bukau. Kata cikgu, sebab nak bina universiti memerlukan tanah yang banyak. Tanah kawasan rata confirm lah mahal. Maka beli tanah di kawasan bukit. Boleh menjimatkan cost. Er, itulah jawapan agak jujur pernah didengar. Sebab kalau tak sebelum ni mesti alasannya untuk memberikan suasana belajar yang kondusif lah, tenang lah, bla bla bla lah. Tapi kalau tanah kawasan bukit murah, kenapakah rumah di atas bukit mahal?

Bercakap mengenai rumah di atas bukit, rumah Moshitta di atas bukit lah. Haha. Ketika kami masih kawan pada zaman dahulu kala, kami pernah bersembang lebih kurang begini.
"Aku dengar Johor banjir. Rumah ko tak banjir ke?" - beliau.
"Yang banjir tu kawasan pedalaman ar. Rumah aku tengah bandar. Negeri Sembilan banjir gak kan? Rumah ko tak banjir ke?" - saya memulang paku buah keras.
"Kalau rumah aku banjir, satu Seremban ni dah banjir la." - beliau. :)

Tapi siapa kata tempat tinggi tak boleh banjir. Emak saya seorang cikgu kelas pemulihan. Kelas pemulihan tersebut berada di tingkat tiga. Suatu hari emak datang ke kelas dan melihat kelas dipenuhi air ke paras agak tinggi. See. Siapa kata tempat tinggi tak boleh banjir. Er tapi itu disebabkan tangki air kat bumbung bangunan tu ada masalah lah.

Oh wah. Entry sudah panjang. Mahu sambung bersosial dengan Cik Kelly-jah.

Azril ada nickname baru untuk saya iaitu Helium. Dia memanggil saya sebagai Helium Agashi tadi. Saya pun masih tak tahu kenapa dia memanggil saya sedemikian.

Sekian tamat. Post ini macam karangan yang sangat skema. Bear with it please.

Till then.

Weekly Update

Weekly Update

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Baru habis exam. Maka malas hampeh nak update. Rasa nak golek-golek sepanjang hari. Tidur malam tadi jam 9+. Bangun subuh jam 5.30 dengan semangatnya nak buat report. Buat graf tak jadi. Maka sambung tidur sampai 8+. Pemalas? Memang. Penatlah belajar. Alasan.

Ahad lepas ada BBQ at embassy. Jangan tanya gambar. Kalau junior boleh kata "datang sebab nak makan", saya pun datang mahu makan ja. Tak mahu bergambar. Haha. Er tapi rugilah. Ranggoli yang saya buat gila lawa dan kemas. Sampai anak Encik Hanisan tertarik nak bertanyakan, "Kakak ni nama apa?" Macam tak ada kaitan kan? Er adalah. Ranggoli saya buat sangat cantik sampai dia tertarik nak berkenalan dengan saya. Tak ada kaitan ke?

Anyways, ketika mahu pulang, Timi mengindicate sebijik Volkswagon Golf yang lalu depan embassy tu. Saya dah pernah kata ini pada Moshitta, biar saya kata sekali lagi. Kali pertama saya nampak Golf, saya rasa uwwaaaaaaaa dengan mulut yang menganga besar. Sekarang saya nampak Golf, saya rasa eleee dengan muka berlagak. Entah kenapa. Makin tengok makin rasa biasa je. Especially setelah mendapat tahu ada terlalu ramai orang lain yang mengadmire kereta tersebut, it has become a fashion. Oh saya lebih terpaku tengok Hyundai i30. Walaupun orang sibuk kata i30 ciplak itu inilah, siapa yang guna i30 will never be a leader lah, a copycat lah etc. etc. but yang penting it looks great, not to mention the spec memang sangat wowwee lah. Ada siapa-siapa nak bagi saya pinjam rm40k? I can afford one here with that much of money. Maybe less. Since currency Korea jatuh teruk sekarang.

I know I've been doing public speaking since I was 9 but that doesn't mean that everytime I stand up front to present something, I wasn't nervous. And on Monday, when I was helping Moshitta with the slides presentation, I could feel my legs wobble. Majorly because I'm presenting in a not-my-major class. It was Civil Engineering major's class, so my confidence is at its edge. I was so afraid the professor would criticize my building that I tried finding solutions to every problems I could think of, integrating all my knowledge, from those piping systems I learnt back at school to solid mechanics. Luckily Moshitta majors in EEE so he was at least able to answer question related to his major. Er you know I AM bad at those stuff. I can't hardly explain how a transistor works, let alone the whole electromagnetic system. And I think the only comment that the professor had on us is that we think too much. Of the whole things really. We even think materials and solar cell and the whole green building concept. Ehem, for a freshmen class, that IS a bit too much I think. But what can I do? I was so freaked out the night before, I had every single thing considered before class.

Oh and we found out today that Jonjonjon in english is not Electrical, Electronic and Electromagnet. Neither is it Electrical,Electronic and Telecommunication. It is actually Electrical, Electronic and Electric Waves Engineering. How very much cooler is that?

Till then =)

My Week

My Week

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Just about time to update kan. Tengah study solid mech sebenarnya. Tapi sangat bosan tengok force dan moment. Maka update blog.

Isnin lepas saya dapat parcel.


10kg+ from Mama. Tahukah everytime saya dapat parcel saya rasa nak menangis. Coz I know it's not cheap untuk hantar parcel overseas. I remembered the first time I got parcel from mama, I kept the box and wrappings for months sebab sangat sayang. Err~

Isi parcel adalah rahsia kerana mungkin menimbulkan kontroversi. Haha.

Mekdi dengan Lion bertandang Sabtu lepas. Maka saya masak sikit-sikit selain menghantar juadah ke rumah jiran kampung sebelah. Kuah kacang dan ayam masak madu je. Mesti korang kata dah raya ke berapa masih berkuah kacang. Er. Sebab raya ni saya belum sekali pun merasa kuah kacang tahu? Dah senior pun tak dapat makan kuah kacang time raya. Kan horror. Tapi masih hampa sebab tak dapat sambal goreng. Wuwuwu~

Macam tak ada apa yang best jek nak kongsi. Sangat banyak benda nak study. Abeek KU dah cancel untuk budak EEE. Budak Chem dengar cerita bakal confirm minggu ni kot. Mech? Entah tak ada berita pun. So in the meantime saya kena gigih berusaha untuk habiskan hujung tahun depan juga. I don't want to be left here alone kan? Doa untuk saya ok.

Nah Ki. Krispy Kreme yang ko nak.

Till then =)

Pressure=Force/Area

Pressure = Force / Area

Assalamualaikum

Jumaat
Chemistry

"Apsal la aku tengok ko asyik tekanan je ni. Berkerut je muka memanjang. Rileks ar." Jojo, ketua batch 70 tegur saya selepas ambil seat selang satu di belakang saya.

"Entah. Remaja la sket." Support Izwan selepas mengambil seat di sebelah Jojo.

Saya gosok dahi yang banyak berkerut.

"Mana tak cepat tua." sambung Jojo lagi.

"Mana tak pressure. Dah kena habiskan abeek hujung tahun depan. Sem depan 8 subjek core." jawab saya.

Lately, if it's about pressure, saya sepanjang masa blame abeek. Walhal keputusan habiskan hujung tahun depan itu adalah keputusan saya. Selepas masak ditekan oleh orang sekeliling. Saya buat keputusan mengalah. Baik. Saya tutup mata dan tarik nafas panjang dan jalan. Tapi sangat banyak sebenarnya tekanan lain. Bukan cuma abeek semata.

Hari ni badan sangat berat untuk buka buku. Mungkin sebab seminggu lepas dah habis stamina bertempur dengan Kimia. Atau mungkin juga buku teks Solid Mechanics tu memang tak best. At first I blamed the school for using the same textbooks for over 30 years. But later when I went to Kyobo to search for reference I understood why so. Because buku Solid Mechanics memang tak banyak lah. And yang ada pun sama bosan dengan buku teks itu. So for the meantime I had to be satisfied with what I have.

Entah apa saya fikir dari pagi. Everything went by in a flash of blur. I still have a presentation to prepare for tomorrow, knowing so well I can never trust first years on term projects. My physics pre-lab is not fully done yet. I told you I don't really know what I did today. But if you fancy ayam masak madu, I still have some that I cooked for lunch.

Things aren't really going my way currently. Though exam result is. Dan saya rasa sangat berat. I want a hot shower but decided it won't help. I need a really strong will. And the ability to face tomorrow.

In this state of mind you are going to question how am I going to do presentation and arrive at physics lab with full commitment tomorrow. Well, I don't know. But somehow I'll pull somethings. I had to rely on my survival mechanism to get me working for the last-minutes-stuff. Procrastinating is sooo Farini.

행복해지면 불안해죠
내가 웃음만큼 눈물이 찯아올까 봐
내 속에 얼마 남지 않는 생명수가 눈물로 다 나올까 봐
그리고 쓰러지면 눈을 뜨지 못할까 봐

일방통행 거꾸러 돌려 봤어?
처음에 미안하다가 나중에 오해가 생겨서
끝까지 가고 싶어져
둘 중 하나야
목적치까지 빨리 가던가
아님 처음 그 못으로 돌아오던가

I love the above phrases. Simply because Han Ga Ein said it with a sooo pintu-bola way.

Till then.

P/S : Saya tak mahu jadi remaja lah. Kan dah kata remaja sangat tak glorious. Saya mahu jadi seorang dewasa. Yang memahami hidup lebih dari hidup memahami saya.

Masak dan Belajar

Masak dan Belajar

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Dah seminggu berlalu. Periuk saya masih berbau nasi ayam =D

Picture taken masa open house hari tu. Menu soto dan nasi ayam. Nasi ayam walau dimasak dua round masih tak cukup. Er invitation kedua untuk yang tidak sempat menjamah hidangan akan diedar sebaik sahaja stok sampai. Sekian terima kasih =)

Orang sangat pelik kenapakah saya sangat suka bertungkus-lumus memasak di dapur untuk menjamu orang lain. Walau saya terpaksa jalan kaki ke pasar membeli barang atau memasak semua hidangan seorang diri, saya masih rajin juga. Er kerana saya rasa gembira orang boleh memakan masakan saya tanpa rasa sakit perut pada keesokan hari. Ia menambahkan keyakinan saya untuk memasak. Haha.

Tapi tahukah? Saya sebenarnya masih seorang beginner dalam bidang masakan. Walaupun saya sangat eligible untuk memasak the whole course of makanan raya such as rendang, lodeh, sambal goreng, kuah kacang, tempe masak kicap, sambal udang etc. saya masih seorang beginner lah. Mama masih tak benarkan saya memasak untuk tetamu, walaupun tetamu itu cuma Moshitta yang dah puas makan masakan saya di sini. Rahsianya? Makanan tersebut semua, walaupun nampak macam sangat grand, sebenarnya diajar memasak kepada saya dengan cara yang paling mudah. Kiranya the straightest simplest ways that will give the same taste as the original ones. Sebab itu kalau suruh saya auta masakan saya tak tahu. Saya akan follow sebijik2 instruction tersebut. Dan tak ada tukar satu pun bahan. Kalau saya tak ada bahan tersebut, saya akan skip. Tak ada main ganti dengan bahan lain.

Kali pertama saya pull a stunt. Waktu masak pulut kuning untuk majlis khatam hari tu. Er Farini memang suka masak makanan yang nampak grand lah. Taknak kalah tu. Haha. Saya beranikan diri take a risk masak pulut tersebut dengan rice cooker. Walaupun mak Zatul kata kalau dengan rice cooker ade possibility untuk tak jadi. Mama sendiri pun tak berapa setuju nak benarkan saya masak dengan rice cooker. It was indeed my first time to ever cook a pulut. I told Mama it was urgent. I don't have much time to steam it because it was already near Maghrib. So I took careful instructions to the minute details and pull it off. Alhamdulillah, pulut menjadi. Hey hey. Farini sudah naik pangkat tahu. Sudah pandai masak pulut dengan rice cooker. Haha.

Er enough lah cerita makanan. Mari cerita lain.

Er oh ya. Periuk besar itu adalah periuk kukus yang saya baru beli. Asyik di-eyeing oleh Timi, katanya nak buat nasi lemak kukus.

Cerita lain lah. Er, hari ini hari Jumaat. 2 hari lepas saya berperang dengan Kimia. Alhamdulillah usaha saya berbalas. Saya suka Kimia. Dan saya suka T.A Kimia saya (T.A Kimia saya perempuan, ok) sebab beliau baik dengan saya. Adakah kerana saya memang selalu berpura-pura seperti pelajar baik yang cemerlang di hadapan mana2 Professor atau T.A? Anyways, walaupun saya suka Kimia tapi saya tetap tak suka bahan Kimia lah. Haha. Hari tu kami bermain dengan Potassium Hydroxide tahu? Seboleh-boleh saya tak mahu cuit benda itu dengan tangan. Sepanjang masa saya ada polyglove bersama saya. Dan saya langsung tak ada meng-handle asid hidroklorik waktu lab.

Kamu.
Entah kali keberapa lagi harus kujelaskan.
Bukankah kita dah mengucapkan selamat tinggal.
Kiriman email dan sms yang kuterima, kau kata mahu kita ketemu.
Untuk apa lagi?
Waktu kita ucapkan selamat tinggal, kan kita dah saling tersenyum.
Walau aku katakan aku akan merinduimu tak pernah bermaksud aku inginkan pertemuan ini.
Kenapa kamu masih tak mahu melepaskan ku.
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Oh Fizik.
우리 그만 하자면 안 될까?
/mode baru lepas dipanggil tutoring Fizik. *sigh.

Hari Raya

Hari Raya

Assalamualaikum

Weekend yang super penat. Open house sangat ramai orang dan sangat sikit makanan. 미안 untuk yang tak dapat makan. Tunggu round dua ok? Gambar open house kena tunggu sikit lagi. In the meantime, sila tengok gambar raya di embassy semalam.

Chosen picture of the year
Aini, Kila, Elly, Su, Farini, Diyana, Dayah, Kelly, Deera, Zatul, Jiji, Aya, Linda.
Honestly, I'm in love with each and every one of them.
I rarely spend times with them and when I do, I don't talk much. I prefer to observe everyone. But that does not mean I love them any less than I always do.


With sweethearts Ejat and Huda.
Thank you sooo much for the time spent.
Love you.

With err..
Letak caption kamu sendiri.
*Love you too*


Kalau sayang itu maksudnya menghendaki kebaikan untuk orang yang kita sayang itu, maka saya sayang amat semua orang di sekeliling saya






Second Post

Second Post

Assalamualaikum

2nd post in a very short time interval.

I so desperately want to play a piano right now. But the piano room at Hana Square is already fully booked for the day and I can't afford the Yamaha Digital Piano. So I try my hardest to squash away the bad feelings by concentrating on my Chemistry textbooks. Besides I've got my 1st exam on the coming Wednesday. But my stomach hurts again. I haven't gotten anything to eat. Especially when my Mihun Goreng turned disaster because I don't have enough spice. Sigh. Let's just go on and concentrate on Chemistry.

Till then

Tag Kiki

Tag Kiki

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Tag Kiki yang dah berzaman lamanya. Haha. Sorry Ki. Unstable sket akhir-akhir ni. Here goes~

My Top 10 Most Favorite Foods
1. Everything from Mama (agree with Kiki!)
2. Potatoes and anything potato-ish.
3. KFC (seriously!)
4. Ayamas' range of frozen food (from sausages to nuggets to drumets)
5. Krispy Kreme's Original
6. Soups. Chicken soups. Mushroom soups. Cream soups.
7. Cream spaghetti. With lots of shrimp.
8. Kuay Teow Goreng
9. Tempe goreng with sambal kicap (gile nostalgic)
10. Karipap. Haha.

10 Things I Love Doing
1. Window shopping. Both online and offline.
2. Light reading. Which often means reading the textbooks.
3. Cooking. Sangat. But I'm sooo lazy to clean up afterwards.
4. Writing.
5. Hanging around my room.
6. Buying nice clothes and not wearing it.
7. Walking. A walk helps me clear my mind a lot.
8. Balik Malaysia everytime cuti. Hooraaaayyy~
9. Go to theme park. Though I don't really go on any rides.
10. Cruising around with closed ones.

5 Types of Guys I Adore
1. The responsible type.
2. The type that will run to my aid whenever I'm in need.
3. The type that loves his family a lot and is not afraid to show it. How comel~
4. The type that listens to my opinion and respect my views.
5. The type that tries to get the best out of me and am proud of who I am.

5 Things I Love Doing When I'm EMO
1. Cleaning my room. This often happens after a bad exam.
2. Cook. It gets my mind off things.
3. Walk on my own.
4. Not talking to anyone. This is not guarantee. Sometimes I prefer to just hide it from people.
5. Throw things around in my own room. As long as no one sees me at it. When I'm EMO I don't wish to have people asking me what's wrong.

5 Things I Love Doing When I'm HAPPY
1. Cook. Haha.
2. Buy new things. Any new things.
3. Eat good food.
4. Say hi to everybody.
5. Pakai cantik2 and go out and about.

10 Ways To Win My Heart
1. Respect me.
2. Accept me as who I am.
3. Be genuine.
4. Listen to me.
5. Love my family.
6. Takde idea sudah.
7. ..
8. ...
9. ....
10. .....
Sometimes it doesn't take a long list of the do's and don'ts to win a person heart. I don't know what makes people win my heart. I guess it just depends on the quality of the time spent. If we spent time bickering each time we met, of course the quality of it is so low that I need to think twice to let you win my heart.

5 Things I Wish To Happen
1. Finish my degree next year. Insya ALLAH.
2. Get married soon.
3. This semester to end fast. It has not been great up to this point and we are only 5 weeks through.
4. Saya menjadi a perfect muslimah. Amin.
5. This nightmare to come to an end.

10 Ridiculous Things I Wish I Can Do Before I Die
I cannot think of even one RIDICULOUS thing that I would want to do.

My Top 10 Most Addicted Song
1. Lovable by Kim Jong Guk
2. Because of A Man by Joo
3. Ardini's version of Barney's I Love You song.
4. Don't Love That Girl by Lee Hyori (saya suka Lee Hyori lah)
5. Everything from SNSD
6. We Fit Together by O-Town (lagu sangat lama tapi macam sangat suka)
7. Partner of Life by SG Wannabe
8. Ride by Diana Page
9. It's On by Superchick
10. Get Up by Superchick
Tak berapa banyak suka lagu baru. Especially lagu barat sekarang ni macam sangat bosan.

5 Persons I Wish To Tag
1. Akmar
2. Jiji. Haha.
3. Kechik. Go update.
4. Mekdi. Er Mekdi wat tag ke? :p
5. Sabrina

The Weird Week

The Weird Week

Assalamualaikum

I don't really know what has gotten into me but I actually mistyped the password for this blog for more than 5 times just now. Never really happened before. School is more hectic than usual. Especially when you got two labs per week. The piles of reports are humongous.

First raya seen me waking up as early as 6 to join solat raya. And I actually walk around the whole day long in baju kurung. Which never really happened before too. And I actually wear 3 baju kurungs and a skirt this week and carry handbag to class. Which again has never really happened before. And so I was relief to finally get back to t-shirts and pants.

Second raya? Don't ask. Honestly, right after I got back from solat raya I was sprawled on the floor in my room, writing reports. Test pads and notes littered every inch of my room. Second raya I was already back in pants and backpack, parading around with my super-clean white lab coat. I love lab coat. But I so hate chemicals. Today we were using hydrochloric acid as part of the experiment. I washed my hands about 3 times with water and the 4th wash with hand soaps at the toilet at Hana Square. Moshitta had to assured me again and again that it's perfectly safe for me to touch my lunch. Ok. I don't really hate chemicals. I just have bad impressions about them.

Sorry I was out grabbing ice caramel latte from coffee bean. If you think the tower of coffee cans I took back at college was exceedingly damaging, you'd think I had practically contaminate my entire body with the cups of lattes I frequently get now. The amount of caffeine I consume in a week are just toxic. I know it actually fuels migraine but if you've got 5 reports to be sent out the next day, you'd practically have to cling on to something that make you stay awake at least 2 more hours after your bedtime.

I can't wait to end this 5 and a half years of nightmare. I so want to finish this real fast and get home as soon as possible. I want to be among family. For a moment I consider to retreat and shut the door of my private life from the world. Just like the way I lock my door when I want to avoid others. For a moment I consider to be just by myself and closed ones and not care about how to socialize with others. For a moment I consider to be plain, old, stuck up Farini. For a moment this pain in my stomach grew stronger as I take another sip of the caramel latte. Don't get it wrong. It's not the latte. It's just me.

Till then.