Up-close and Personal

Assalamualaikum

I'm not in a good state currently. At the point that I refuse to make contact with anybody. Except loved ones. And when I say loved ones, I mean LOVED ONES.

I realized today that no amount of crying would ever make me feel better. No amount of good food would. Neither will any amount of good shopping.

I am just broken.

Like there is this thing inside my throat that feels like exploding but just can't. So it stayed in near-exploding state.

I am a fool for thinking that I can ever survive. Yes?

I miss Moshitta a lot, I practically shed tears just by typing the word down.

Assalamualaikum