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Assalamualaikum

Oh 머리부터 발끝까지 다 사랑스러워

Oh 니가 나의 여자라는 게 자랑스러워

기다림이 즐겁고 이젠 공기마저달콤해

이렇게 너를 사랑해

세상이 힘들어도 널 보면

마음에 바람이 통해

이런 게 사는 거지

이런 게 행복이지

이제야 느끼게 됐어 나는

온종일 우울해도 널 보면

머리에 햇빛이 들어

이렇게 놀라운 게 사랑이지

기다린 보람이 있어

This second picture is a lot off but I love the smile on Dini's face.

The above song was from Kim Jong Kook; Lovable. To sum it up it says that the girl is so charming that no matter how hard or how gloomy the day is, the sight of her face can always blows a wind inside your heart and streams sunshine in your life. I love her. A lot.

Saya menangis teruk dalam flight. Berjuraian air mata. Everything I did reminds me of her. And Moshitta made things worse by launching into, "Duhai apakah gerangan budi balasan. Bagi insan melahir dan membesarkan...." Actually lagu tu tak berapa ada kaitan dengan hubungan saya dan Dini. Tapi lagu tu dengar di mana-mana pun memang bakal mengenerate air mata sekolam. Maka makin tersedu-sedan la saya.

I'll miss Dini's smiles.

I'll miss Kiki's horror-stricken face when Dini announced that she just 'yak'ed.

I'll miss changing her diapers for her and how she would run away and screamed 'nanak' because she hates diapers.

I'll miss her screaming a series of "Mo, mo, mo" nonstop when she wants me to open the door for her.

I'll miss her screaming "Adini wat" when she wants to eat on her own.

I'll miss her asking me for 'bobobo' or 'acik' or 'mi'.

I'll miss her pulling my hands to the counter and ask me to buy her lollipops.

I'll miss having to drag her away from those 'kuda' at the mall.

I'll miss singing Kom Sae Mari and Barney's I Love You with her and the way she sings "Ttung ttung hae".

I'll miss her saying 'boyosh'.

I'll miss playing 'ala comel, ala sayang' with her.

I'll miss playing 'bebebeng' with her.

I'll miss blowing bubbles for her in the bath and how she would try to grab it.

I'll miss her imitating what we says and says "A kawan yah" when she decided not to befriend us and when she sing "Ala atuk ala atuk" when she sees papa.

I'll miss the way she ran semacam tak cukup tanah with her fat legs.

I'll miss the way she shakes when the cold water hits her in the bath and when she always tries to gulp some of it in.

I'll miss the way she talks as if there's something funny yet none of us understands her speech.

I'll miss the way she sleeps on my lap when we went out for long journey, even when it's only sunway-kajang.

I'll miss everything about her.

Till then

Hi I'm back at Seoul city.

And as much as I hate packing, I hate unpacking too.

Anyhow,

No more slow youtube streaming.

No more typing long ids and passwords, I now am on my on PERSONAL computer.

No more having to put up with a particular person's snaps and rolling-eyes.

The one thing I noticed about myself this summer.

I am supposed to be an engineer.

I am practical. 

When you give me an order, just tell me what you want me to do.

You don't have to elaborate on what you feel on the matter and nag your head off and find 1001 excuses to win the argument.

Save that for yourself cause I don't care.

See,

Tell me what you want to be done, and I'm going to do it the simplest, fastest, best way I can.

And if you are not satisfied with it, then go do it all over again yourself.

And what's with the selfish thing again? I wonder how could you just see yourself in everything, everywhere, every single second.

Unlike you, my life is not a photo wholly of myself. It's a jigsaw puzzle. Its pieces are those people that surrounds me; from my family to that security guard that man the information booth at hana square. Each one of their feelings matter if I am to give my life the best I could.

Assalamualaikum

Wahh. Seminggu lagi tanpa update.Weehee~ Menjaga kanak-kanak amat penat lah. Dan tidak mempunyai experience lain dari hari ke hari. Tapi sangat banyak ke sana ke mari melihat hantaran dan perabot rumah baru. Walaupun sangat ada hati nak melihat hantaran, tapi belum ada hati nak tengok perabot rumah. Nanti selepas mendecide untuk membeli rumah, pastilah melihat sebanyak-banyaknya majalah hiasan rumah untuk memilih perabot. Er tapi peti seuk dua pintu dan tv plasma sudah confirm masuk ke list. Juga Hyundai i30. Walaupun Hyundai i30 bukanlah perabot rumah.

Khamis lepas Moshitta datang ke rumah. Kerana saya tak boleh bertandang ke rumah beliau. Nak datang Khamis, hari Rabu baru cakap. Apa lagi, kelam kabut lah mengemas dari belakang ke depan. Mengharap Dini nap lama sikit pagi tu supaya sempat menghabiskan kemas. Er beliau datang dan makan dan makan dan makan. Bersama keluarga. Saya. Bukan keluarga beliau. Jumaat kami ke Kajang bersama dan saya turun Seremban sekejap. Tidur di rumah beliau lah. Awal pagi Sabtu pulang ke Kajang. Hari Ahad datang lagi. Dan balik malam hari yang sama.

Cuti ni semacam tak ada banyak adventure dan tak banyak mengembara bersama rakan-rakan lah. Gambar pun tak ada banyak. Cuti dah nak habis. Masa untuk menghadap buku dan bangun jam 7 setiap pagi dah makin hampir. Aiseh.

Assalamualaikum

- I mercilessly threw Rory away yesterday when I was cleaning my room. To those who don't know Rory, well, you don't have to.

- "Ki, wedding planner aku dah terbuang skali ke time kemas tadi ek? Tu maknanye dah tak bleh kawen ke?"

- Saya bukan seorang remaja yang tergila-gila tak sabar hendak mempunyai lesen kereta. Memetik apa yang saya katakan kepada Kak Awin, selagi saya tidak terpaksa, saya tidak ingin sama sekali mengendalikan mana-mana mesin. And I am a Mechanical Engineering major. Er tapi kalau nak beli Hyundai i30 semacam peliklah kalau tak ada lesen. Er orang lain tolong drive boleh kah?

- The rm10 reload I bought last week lasted a week till last night. Ahahaha. Gila bangga. Orang takde duit la kata kan.

- Saya semakin gila shopping baju. Walaupun Kak Awin ngan Kiki passed banyak baju diorang kat saya. Errr.. kalau ini berterusan jawabnya beg balik Korea akan dipenuhi dengan baju. Bukan makanan raya.

Assalamualaikum

Er apakah cerita pada entry lepas. Sudah lupa. Anyways, saya sedang babysit untuk Dini. Percayakah? Saya sudah cukup berwibawa woo untuk menjaga seorang kanak-kanak tanpa diobserve oleh seorang dewasa yang lain. Er walaupun tadi kalut bila Dini buat 'kuih'. Nekad untuk ajar Dini lagu Kom Sae Mari maka memainkan lagu tersebut secara berulang kali di laptop ini. Sampai dia sudah pandai lah sebut appa kom, omma kom dan usu usu. Haha. Sudah ada strategi untuk mengalihkan perhatian Dini dari meminta-minta itu ini iaitu dengan meminta-minta pada dia dan menggunakan intonasi yang sama yang dia gunakan. Haha. Sangat terdiamlah dia tengok saya begitu tadi. Dan sangat sibuklah dia melayan saya. Cuba nak mengambilkan semua benda yang saya nak. Haha. Sekarang sedang tidur dengan nyenyak dalam bilik mama, maka saya curi lah sikit masa mengupdate blog.

Di sekitar saya sedang sibuk hal kahwin lah. Hari tu Dina. Er saya sudah kata kah saya 'banjir' dulu sebelum orang lain. Haha. As she held my hand tightly when we were left together before kadi datang dan ambil keterangan dari dia, I thought, that was the last time she will ever hold my hands. Sebab sekarang dia dah ada tangan orang lain yang dia akan pegang seumur hidup dia. Er macam sikit sentimental cerita ini. Anyways, cerita perkahwinan seindah fairytale mestilah goes to cerita Chika. Oh dalam diam saya admit, mana ada perempuan yang taknak dimasuk meminang seindah itu. Er takde la saya tau cerita secara mendalam, tapi dengar summary pun macam sudah teruja. Ok gila best. Apapun congrats lah ye Cik Chika. Jeles secara sangat jeles nih. Haha. Oh cerita jauh-jauh. Dalam bilik saya pun sangat penuh dulang hantaran tahu? Malam tadi teman mama keluar beli barang-barang hantaran. Oh bukan untuk saya. Untuk abang yang bakal nikah 3 minggu lagi. Kak Awin yang dijadualkan hujung tahun ni pun dah sibuk ajak saya tengok barang hantaran dan cincin kahwin. Er. Kahwin di sana sini. Macam sangat seronok lah.

Er saya kahwin? Lambat lagi. Bukan kah dah kena extend. Lain lah kalau secara tiba-tiba dibenarkan kahwin waktu belajar. Tu lain lah.