Random Ramblings

- Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Random Ramblings

Assalamualaikum

Farini ada drawings untuk di bawa jumpa Prof. Kim Kwon Hee aka legend, tapi dah menangis-nangis tengok Chika dapat bunga, maka mood telah jatuh bertaburan. Aik? Chika dapat bunga dari suami kenapa saya pulak yang nangis. Itulah kamu semua tak tahu. Itu nama dia tangisan gembira melihat kawan gembira. Eheh. Kan memang ada satu masa kamu dapat rasa kegembiraan orang lain maka kamu pun menangis terharu. Er ke cuma saya yang macam tu? Apa pun selepas menangis menumpang gembira orang lain, telah gelak terbahak-bahak bila Mekdi tanya saya soalan kasut saya saiz berapa sebab beliau lupa saiz kasut sendiri. Ok tipu lah bukan kalau kata gelak terbahak-bahak seorang diri depan komputer. Farini tak begitu. Saya cuma tergelak kecil sahaja sambil berasa amused.

Eh tahukah. Nama saya kalau read in chinese character means Law (Fa), Lily(Ri), and Lady(Ni). Juan Lin, during Engineering Materials class said to me that it's better if I wrote it as Hwa Ri Ni instead. It would be a pretty name since Hwa means flower. Sae Jun Oppa pun once spelt my name as Hwa Ri Ni. Tapi saya lebih suka Fa lah. Law nampak macam tegas dan bijak. Macam sangat adil dan mementingkan kebenaran while flower nampak macam all-pretty semata-mata.

Dalam suatu kelas thermodynamics, kami diminta menyenaraikan sepuluh sebab kenapa kami sayang orang yang kami sayang. It could be our parents, could be our best friends, could be our constant companions. One guy came up with these reasons why he loves his girlfriend :-

1. 부르면 온다 (she always comes when I call her)
2. 안 불러도 온다 (she always comes even when I don't call her)

Well, I do notice it's hard for me to find ten reasons that made me love people. Three or five maybe easy. Tapi SEPULUH? Prof Yun said that if we find it hard to do, we should probably start learning how to compliment others.

바람은 한번 떠난 곳에 다시 되돌아오지 않아
Just like everything else in our lives.

Eceh, bukan kah macam tipu. Angin boleh kembali ke tempat yang angin pernah lalu lah. Dengan syarat, pressure di tempat itu lebih rendah dari tempat di sekeliling angin tersebut.

다시 되돌아올 수는 있지만 그래도 예전에랑 다를거다
Kerana this time entropy telah meningkat berbanding sebelumnya. Kerana semua proses ialah irreversible. It's just that we always prefer to assume that it is irreversible. So that it'll make our problem solving easier.

Thermodynamics is interesting, no?
p/s: observing a child growing up adalah salah satu kebahagiaan hidup

Assalamualaikum.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

- Wednesday, May 20, 2009

F.R.I.E.N.D.S
Assalamualaikum

Farini masih berasa blerghhh sebab ADM strikes again when they give us a less-than-one-day notice that we'll be having presentation tomorrow. Yesterday it's sapa-nak-consulting-datang-sapa-taknak-takyah-datang-pun-takpe. Today they made it so that everybody has to come WITH a presentation. I thought the last time when they gave us 2-days notice is bad enough. Bila Hock Siang buzzed me today with the news, I just can't help complaining. Hey hey hey. I just thought I'd start reading my textbook today lah.

Anyways, sebab masih berasa tak berapa seronok, maka pergi update blog. Padahal tak tau apakah kena mengena.

From left : Me, Hyae Min (back), Su Yeon, Jong Hwa

Another 3 girls of ME. Hyae Min is the cool type. Kamu tak akan jumpa dia berpakaian macam ni ke kelas biasa. Normally she got her hair tied up in a messy (read:MESSY) bun and she wears thick red-framed glasses. Jong Hwa is the comel-est, least ME-ish. Always have a smile on her face when talking to people. I found out that she is deadly polite a few years ago when she just entered ME. Now at least she knows how to say the word 싫다 and 짜증 나다. Su Yeon is the first that talked to me. Er well I talked to her first during the poster exhibition (I was explaining our product to her). We first had a chat on our way home. She lives near my house. She's from Busan and so is extremely friendly. But soon I realized that she's got one trait that is similar to me. Only that she's not afraid to admit it. Unlike me.

We were sitting by the windows at the 3rd Floor of Innovation Hall, waiting for the classroom to be opened when I offered her my Kit Kat. She refused, saying she's eaten a lot that day since she's under stress. And she started talking about how worried she was of her mid-term result. Me, not knowing what to say, just told her that everything's going to be ok, that it must not be that bad. And then she said it. The one thing that I know well. The one thing that makes us have one thing in similar. 나 욕심이 많아. I am greedy.

Ok. Greedy sounded macam bad words kan. Rather than greedy, she just expects more from herself and is always wishing she could do better. There are so many things she hoped she could have. In a sense, just like me. Well now I'll admit that I always hope I can do better in many things. I am always expecting more from myself. Thus the constantly worrying about results and willing to fight with the T.A for even one mark that I think I deserved. Cuma saya tak pernah say it out loud. Therefore when Su Yeon said the words, I was kind of stunned. Not knowing what to say more. Because I do understand how she felt and that little words can soothe her.

I am glad I decided to take ABEEK. There are piles of work, constant stress and less time for self, but it offers me lots of friendships in return.

Everyone is worthy of your friendship and attention. Coz everyone around you matters. No matter how little roles they play in your life, they are never too insignificant to care about.


Tapi Farini bukankah sangat sombong terhadap orang yang tak dikenali?

Assalamualaikum =)

Engineer of Life

- Saturday, May 16, 2009

Engineer of Life

Assalamualaikum

I know ADM (Advanced Machine Design) punya deadline untuk design note is less than 9 hours away and I haven't written a single thing yet, tapi I just need to blog. There's so much to say and share.

Semalam telah mendesign wardrobe secara habis-habisan. Walaupun telah give up di hujungnya. Tapi saya sangat suka. Sebab semalam sehari suntuk tak berperasaan dan tak berfikir perkara yang kurang signifikan. I was too busy with Pro E that nothing else bothers me much.

Ok mari share one thing yang saya rasa kalau tak tulis sekarang nanti akan lupa nak tulis. Life from the view of an engineer. Er mechanical engineer, I should say. Siapa tahulah kan budak chemical dengan eee blaja apa.

Well, in Mechanism Design we do learn that all the body in space may have up to six degree of freedom. And there are always joints that constraint the body to have less than six degree of freedom. Question is, kenapakah nak constraint body tersebut? Bukankah lagi banyak degree of freedom lagi senang digerakkan? Answer is, without joints the body won't be functioning the way we desire it to be. It is with constraint that we control the body to move the way we want it to move and reach the point where we want to reach. It goes the same way in life. Hukum agama itu sudah tentu, undang-undang dan peraturan juga berfungsi sebagai joints yang sangat-sangat diperlukan dalam hidup kita. So that we'll function correctly. Supaya kita berjaya capai apa yang kita mahu. Supaya kita tak bersepah-sepah di sana sini tak tentu hala.

Di sana sini orang merungut pasal pressure lah bukan? Semua orang tak suka dipressure oleh orang lain. Tahukah sebenarnya badan kamu menanggung tekanan yang besar pada setiap hari. I mean it. Badan kamu menanggung tekanan 1 atm setiap hari. 1 atm tak nampak besar lah bukan. Tahukah 1 atm itu approximately 101 325Pa. Which kalau divided by gravitational acceleration is more than 10 000kg per meter square. Berapa meter square badan kamu, itu kira sendiri. Tapi kamu menanggung berat lebih 10 000kg bagi setiap meter square badan kamu. See kan sangat berat. Dan sangat besar pressure tersebut. Tapi kamu need the pressure. Why? Sebab kalau kamu tak mahu pressure tersebut, pergilah ke angkasaraya sana. Angkasaraya walaupun bukan 100% vacuum tapi dah cukup untuk tunjuk apa akan jadi pada kamu without pressure tersebut. You'll explode. Truth is you need the pressure to keep yourself together, to keep it from being destroyed. Setiap apa yang kamu rasa tekanan dalam hidup sebenarnya ialah sesuatu untuk keep kamu together. Jadi jangan memandang ia sebagai sesuatu yang berat ke apa. Live with it, just like you lived all your life with the atmospheric pressure and one day you won't feel it there at all, just like you don't feel the atmospheric pressure that surrounds you.

We learnt efficiency of open system today during thermo class. Tahukah efficiency in real life is always lower than 1. Well at least if you're dealing with engineering stuff. Budak business bukankah boleh ada untung 200-300%. Tahukah at most situation the reason why you can't get 100% efficiency is because the existence of friction. Haha. Kita kan selalu kalau tulis report lab fizik mesti menyalahkan friction kalau ada error. Tak kisah la error kecik ke besar. Dari portion energy yang masuk, cuma sebahagian saja akan keluar menjadi work. A lot of the time that is what happen in real life. We don't really get as much as we work hard for kan? Because of the existence of friction. Apakah friction yang dimaksudkan dalam real life kita? Well that's up to you. I have my own thought of what the friction of my life is, but I'm not sharing. All I can say is that let us be a good engineer and minimize the friction so as to get higher efficiency.

Yayy. Now I'm an engineer of life :)

Assalamualaikum

Looking at the Brighter Side

- Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Looking at the Brighter Side

Assalamualaikum

Ok dah habis cerita thrill, mari cerita tentang perkara di belakang tabir symposium tersebut. Saya bawa my pink striped suitcase on the trip. Semua orang sindir, considering the trip is just for two days. The journey dari Seoul ke Sampark sangat jauh. Lagi-lagi waktu pergi jalan jammed. Apa lagi. Bagai nak muntah semua ada dalam bas tersebut. Oh ya, Farini tak berapa boleh travel jauh ye kawan-kawan. Beliau mudah pening dan nak muntah dalam kenderaan. Kemudian saya polka-dotted my brand new khaki overall dengan kuah BBQ. Oh hebat. Cemerlang sungguh. Basuh pun tak hilang. Boleh beli baru? Saya bangun tidur dengan kesan scratch yg panjang betul di belakang tangan. Did I just scratched myself while sleeping ek?

Semalam saya attend Open-Lab Event and ME Dept's gala. The poster exhibition is ok. We just go around listening to the post-graduate students talking about the researches they are currently doing, but the party afterwards macam sangat.... blergh tak tau nak cakap apa. At first I thought I'd go home a bit early after the poster exhibition, tapi tak tau macam mana nak mintak diri from the other ME girls, so they dragged me along to the party behind the Innovation Hall. It was raining dan saya berdiri di hujung2 khemah. I was more willing untuk berhujan dari kena smell the alcohols and pork. Yucks! Even now masih rasa macam nak muntah. The post-graduate students treated me well considering I'm the only foreign-looking person kat situ kot. And afterwards my Mechanism Design's T.A brought me, Su Yeon, Hyae Min and Jeong Hwa for coffee.

Today we practiced Taguchi method during Advanced Machine Design. Kena lipat 8 keping origami katak. Farini melipat sangat laju macam tengah pertandingan lipat katak, siapa lipat paling banyak dia menang. Padahal adalah Taguchi practice lah bukan. And at the end of the class, prof bagitau that lusa ada presentation AutoCAD version of the arm. Berasa macam nak pengsan. Hei hei hei. Apakah punya style bagi notice presentation 2 days before? Lepas ni akan muntah buat AutoCAD.

Assalamualaikum

Proud of Myself

- Monday, May 11, 2009

Proud of Myself

Assalamualaikum

Farini is proud of herself. For two things.

Satu. Saya berjaya mengangkat barang yang sangat berat. Tak payah tanya barang apa. Cukup anda tahu barang itu sangat berat. Serius plus minus 15kg. Ele, angkat Ardini hari-hari pun 15kg apa. Er tapi tak apa. Berasa bangga dengan diri sendiri sebab pandai berdikari dan tak ada menyusahkan orang lain.

Dua. Farini akhirnya melakukan sesuatu yang thrill. Ok thrill secara serius dan secara habis. Saya main ATV time career symposium yang lepas. Kenapakah main ATV pun dikategorikan thrill dalam kamus Farini? Sebab satu : Farini tak pandai memandu. Hahaha. Bawak motor jalan rata bertar pun sekali dua cuma. Tu pun ada Farid kat blakang. Lesen kereta pun baru berusia berapa bulan. Ini kan pulak nak masuk hutan jalan berliku berbatu bagai meredah lopak. Dah macam 4WD tahu? Sebab dua : Farini takut tinggi. Ini semua orang tau lah bukan? Dan course tersebut ialah jalan bukit. Waktu naik no problem. Laju jek. Sekali nak turun, hah ambik.

Tapi serius sangat freaking awesome. It freaked me. And it's awesome. The uphill climb macam sangat banyak batu. And a few times I felt like my hands were going to slip from the handles. But I guess it's just as the real life is. When you are facing a rocky climb, always you feel like u can't take it anymore. But grip tight and push on and pray that you soon reach the top. Sometimes sebab sangat banyak batu, we might accidentally get out of track. Saya terlajak keluar twice tahu. Nyaris jatuh tebing. But when you do, stop, take a deep breath and swerve back into the track. You'll be ok.

Waktu turun. Hahaha. Farini tak nak turun. Saya cakap kat dia saya tak sanggup. Tapi mana boleh tak sanggup lah bukan. Considering saya orang paling depan. Kalau saya buat hal kesian orang belakang lah bukan. Jadi saya turun juga. All the time humming O' Town's All or Nothing. Kenapakah lagu tersebut, you might ask. Sebab lagu tersebut ada ayat "there's nowhere left to fall when you reach the bottom, it's now or never." Haha. I was motivating myself all the time that no matter how steep it is, I'll reach the bottom of the hill soon. Maka keep holding and keep myself together. Lesson is, semakin tinggi kita ada di puncak, semakin jauh kita kena turun ke bawah when the time comes. Er and oh yeah. Saya was hoping hard that Elly Nadia won't crush into me. Kalau crush bukan kah akan sliding secara beramai-ramai. Ok. Don't think about it.

Anyways, it was a memorable one. Kalau saya main ATV sebelum ambik lesen kereta, confirm akan pass lesen kereta dengan cemerlang. Tak adalah dikutuk oleh papa dan mama sebab fail QTI bukan?


p/s : apa? nak self-reward? pergi kira berapa banyak baju baru yang dah beli bulan ni sana.


Assalamualaikum =)

Back on Track

- Thursday, May 7, 2009

Back on Track

Assalamualaikum

Adakah anda tahu macam mana rasanya tak payah susah-payah menaip login ID dan password yang panjang2 belaka setiap kali bukak komputer? Alhamdulillah. Akhirnya saya tahu macam mana rasanya selepas CPU sendiri menyala semula. :D

Ada hikmah besar saya tak berjaya format sendiri komputer ni. At first sangat berasa semangat berkobar-kobar, bersemarak, bernyala bagai nak betulkan sendiri. Especially since Prof. Park Shin Seok dah kata budak ME macam kami macam sangat jarang nak pegang apa-apa machine. Walaupun CPU macam tak berapa boleh masuk kategori machine, tapi tak apa. Asal saya cuba bermain pegang-pegang dia dah cukup lah bukan? Selepas pusing sana-sini, spent a few hundreds rm, cabut dan pasang balik harddisk sampai kuku patah (lepas cabut tak tau nak pasang balik kat mana. haha :p) akhirnya saya hantar kedai. Hahahaha. Bukan salah saya lah. Memang tak boleh format. Dah pakai 4 CD tahu.

Pakcik tersebut sangat baik hati. Beliau tolong fix it for free. Korang beramai-ramailah pergi kedai pakcik tu kat Hana Square sana. Aik? Iklan free. Anyways, pakcik tersebut tak format pun CPU ini. Entah dia buat apa pun saya tak berapa tahu. Sebab dia tak kasik tahu. Dia cuma kata virus sangat banyak dan dia dah betulkan mana yang patut dan jangan buang AV yang dia dah install. Apparently dia macam did more than tekan heal kat AV je saya rasa. Sebab not only semua application is OK, I actually recovered my priceless possession dalam CPU ni. Something I thought was lost months ago.

Anyways, mahu pergi masak cucur kentang. Sebab lapar amat.

Oh ya. Cerita di bawah ini tak macam ditulis oleh Farini lah bukan? Bukankah Farini akan tulis something like

Farini sat staring at the powerpoint slide of phase diagram of a Copper-Nickel alloy shown on the giant screen upfront, her hand twirling the ring on her fourth finger of her left hand, causing the four tetrahedrally-arranged single-crystalled carbon to occasionally catch the lights.

Phew~ Cikgu Academic English saya sangat banyak komen tentang ayat saya lah. "Concise and clear," he would say as he reminded me again and again to write shorter sentences. I had to consciously strain myself from writing long sentences on my final paper but sometimes I just can't help it. Maybe I should exercise some more. And no, long sentences doesn't imply smartness or anything of that sort. Shorter sentences with higher impact does. Go read Mekdi's blog and you'll know what I mean.


Till then. Cekodok kentang is on the way.

Assalamualaikum

An Old Story

- Sunday, May 3, 2009

An Old Story


Jade sat all by herself in her room. It was a few days before the big day-her wedding day- but she had been locking up herself there for the past few weeks. She didn't eat much. She didn't do anything much. She just sat and stared at the blank space. blank space. Blank is empty, she thought. Empty was what she was feeling inside her. She glanced on her bedside table to find out what time is it. Instead her eyes met Ken's eyes-her fiance's eyes. The photos of both of them had stood on the bedside table as long as she could remember. But again, Jade didn't really remember much. She suffered from trauma and was lost a portion of her memory. The doctors insisted that nobody should tell her what was the missing memory. They insisted for her to recover it on her own. So it was just lately that she found out about the portion of memory which was missing from her mind. It was just lately that she had chosen to just sit and stare by means of spending the day. It was just lately that she had a second thought about this wedding. And it was just lately that she began to think of dylan...

Jade met Ken in high school. Everybody knows they were an item. Inseparable. Unbreakable. Ken was easily one of the most eligible bachelor, nice and kind to everybody. Jade was miss popular. That title explained everything about her. but since Ken didn't really have much time to spend with her, Jade and Dylan became friends. They weren't classmates but they got close very quick. Dylan was the kind of guy which cared about his friends. He was easygoing and fun. The kind of friend that Jade really needed.

The day before prom, Dylan came over to Jade's house, as always. They sat on the porch and talked. Talk was what they did everyday. Jade had thought that there was something wrong about Dylan that day. But she could not tell what was it until Dylan turned to her and said, "I love you, Jade. will you go to the prom with me?". Jade was thunderstruck. She didn't know what to say. No, she could not go to the prom with Dylan. She was going with Ken. Though he didn't ask her yet, but Jade didn't think that such thing needed asking. They were after all a couple. But something inside jade was nagging her. She could not bring herself to say that he didn't love Dylan. She looked into his hazel eyes and she knew those words were true. But she just kept herself quiet. Fighting furiously inside to strain herself from telling him that she too thought she was falling in love with him.

"I take that as a no," Dylan said suddenly. He got to his feet and said, "Somehow, I hope you are going to be happy for Id love to see you wearing your smile always and I love the way you laugh."

Before he walked away, he turned to her and smiled. The smile she thought she would remember forever. Only that she had forgotten the smile for years. Years until she recollected her memories a few weeks ago. but it wasn't all. Jade remembered the prom too..

The school hall looked magnificent. Jade had never thought it could look that beautiful. The shining chandelier hung low in the middle of the hall. Everybody was in their best suits and dresses. The music was great. The dance floor was never empty. Talking and jeering filled the gaps between songs. So this is what they call senior prom, Jade thought. Everybody was feeling good that night. Everybody but Jade. She still wondered how was Dylan. She kept looking in all directions to see if she could catch a glimpse of him. She hardly noticed when ken left her side, saying that he'd be back with some refreshments for them both.

Jade was in the middle of crossing the hall when she heard an earsplitting shriek. It was followed by another scream a moment later. Jade spun around and watched everybody was screaming at her. Confused, she looked up to see the big chandelier was falling on top of her. It was going to land right on her head. Jade felt her legs turning jelly. She could not move her body. The next second she was being pushed out of the way by somebody. Jade fell hard on the glossy, polished floor. her head knocked into the brick wall. She could feel the warmth of a sticky red liquid in her head. She could hear people screaming louder. She could even hear a few tears. but the last thing she remembered seeing was Dylan's body crushed under the heavy chandelier. Blood was everywhere. One of the glass was stuck in his skull. Dylan's hazel eyes had stopped shining. but Jade could still see the love in it...

When she woke up the next day in the hospital, she had forgotten all about it. She only knew she suffered a trauma and that she should recover by herself. Not by the helps of others. Jade remembered trying to look through all her school magazines and albums for clues of what had happened, but she found none. So she went on with her life, graduated from one of the national's best universities, had her own high-flying career and Ken had proposed in the most special way one could think of. Her life was happy. She learnt not to care so much about the missing puzzle in her head. She had thought that if she was bound to finding out the truth, then one day she would. And she did.

It was when Ken brought her back to the school hall for a reunion of their class. There stood the heavy chandelier, illuminating everything inside the hall. The tables and chairs. The cutleries and glasses. Before she knew it, she had let out a scream. Everything came back in a rush. She could see Dylan. A chandelier glass stucked in his head. His body covered with bloods and pieces of glasses. His arms flailed helplessly on his side. And his eyes...

It was hard to remember it all and yet act as if nothing had happened. Jade got up to her feet and walked to the windows. From her room on the second floor, she could view the scenery of the ground around her house. Her eyes locked to the porch. It was there that she last saw Dylan smiled. And suddenly something Dylan said struck her.

"Somehow I hope that you'll always be happy for I'd love to see you wearing your smile always and I love to see you laugh." She recalled.

Jade realized that Dylan didn't saved her so that she would live in depression. He didn't save her so that the thought of him would haunt her forever. No. He saved her so that she could continue to live happily. She was happy these past years. Her life had been wonderful. And to be sad and lost all the will to continue such happy life wasn't really what Dylan would want for her. Maybe, she'd proceed this wedding after all. Ken was always nice and supportive towards her. He really did love her. She'd continue living her happy life too. That was what Dylan had wished for. Only that in her deepest mind, there'd always be a memory of Dylan. She'd always remember his last smile, his last words, and that last look in his eyes which told her that he really loved her. 'I'm sorry I couldn't tell you, but I loved you too,' she thought. And it didn't matter whether her life would always be wonderful or would she be having more obstacles in future, in Jade's heart, Dylan would always be the one who stole a part of her heart....

ABEEK Lagi

- Saturday, May 2, 2009

ABEEK Lagi



Assalamualaikum



Farini dah bosan lukis tangan. Er dalam kata lain, ARM. Penat re-design entah berapa kali. Oleh itu cepat lah sikit tujuh minggu berlalu. Saya tak sabar nak bermula buat projek baru.



Semalam telah berasa gembira dan puas hati amat. Sebab berjaya berjalan-jalan dan melupakan ABEEK sekejap. Meninggalkan design note terbengkalai dan meeting report macam deadline bukanlah hari ni. Terima kasih kepada encik Moshitta sebab sanggup melayan kerenah saya T.T



Tahukah? Sekarang di ME pun tengah sibuk bincang tentang hal ABEEK. Kalau faculty buat keputusan kasik graduation certificate yang sama pada budak biasa dan budak ABEEK saya akan rasa ehem... tak tau patut berasa apakah. Sebab kalau benda terjadi bukan kah kena menerima dengan hati terbuka. Tapi pun akan berasa usaha selama ni macam sangat penat je.



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