Up-close and Personal

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1. Kelly, Jiji and Diyana came for sleepover last night. My room had practically turned into their new studio.

2. I'm going to be a loooootttt busy these two weeks. 2 presentation due next week. 1 final presentation and 3 papers for next-next week.

3. I already sketched my hantaran during solid mechanics class yesterday. But no, I still don't know when I'm getting married.

4. I'm totally going to renew my wardrobe for my new final-year look. Alhamdulillah my birthday is coming soon so I can load my wishlist with cheap new clothes which I'll list up much later. *wink*

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Macam dah bosan lah dengar lagu tu kan? SeoNyeo ShiDae pun macam sangat lama lagi akan keluar lagu baru. Mari memberi laluan kepada lagu yang saya gila-gilakan back then in 2004.

Dah dengarkah? Saya nasihatkan jangan dengar. Haha. Lagu ini sangat bising. Dan lebih bising dari Avril Lavigne. Erk. Sejak bilakah Farini mendengar lagu yang sangat bising? Bukankah cuma suka benda berciri pop?

Saya pertama kali dengar lagu ni dari cd burn Jiji. Ouch. Sebenarnya kitorang disuruh menghafal lagu lain. Tapi lagu lain saya pergi dengar. Ini lagu Korea pertama yang saya suka. Basically sebab waktu tu saya cuma tahu sepatah dua perkataan Korea. Dan basically ketika itu apa-apa lagu yang melibatkan perkataan fly adalah semacam sangat best sebab tengah excited preparing nak fly oversea. Er walaupun yang fly dalam lagu ni ialah seekor itik cuma. Haha. Tapi kalau diambil menjadi satu metafora, adalah umpama seseorang yang biasa-biasa tapi ada impian untuk berjaya dan menjadi cemerlang. Macam seekor itik yang mencuba untuk terbang. Er memanglah ada itik yang boleh terbang. Tapi sila assume yang dimaksudkan ialah itik yang tak boleh terbang. Haha.

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Hari ni baju baru sampai ke rumah saya. Navy, plaid. To be worn Sabtu ni to Labulabi's Year End Party. Ece =D Orang dah berbudi dengan menginvite kita ke parti, apa salahnya kita berbahasa dengan memakai baju yang baru dibeli ke parti. Kan? Kan? Hakikatnya semalam dah menerawang segenap pelusuk Interpark.com. Er tipulah. Tak mungkin segenap pelusuk Interpark. Gila kah? Sehari suntuk pun belum tentu habis. Saya cuma menerawang ke kategori one-piece sahaja. Tu pun di dalam sub-category mini one-piece. Huweeiii boleh gila nak habis tengok semua one-piece. Ended up dengan 25 choices, and then cut down to 4 based on budget and then sent out for others' opinion. At the end, I got nothing. Haha. The one that arrived today is from Lotte.com. Itu pun Moshitta dah bersuara. Kata beliau apa kata saya tukar tiket flight menjadi duit untuk membeli baju. Boleh beli 600 helai. Er uhh~

Well then just as I thought I'm down with it, sekali baca blog Chika la plak. Dan beliau mengquote littleblackbook. Er apakah littleblackbook? Kata Chika boutique yang macam syurga. Er tipulah. Tak percaya. Takkan lah best macam tu skali. Kata Chika, click sini. Er sini tu maksudnya kat blog Chika sanalah. Pergi click sana. Sekali pergi click. Dan rasa macam nak menjerit. Er wah. Rambang-rambang. Tapi overbudget =( Sangat mahal. Eceh~ Padahal lebih kurang sama jek harga baju kat sini. Tapi kalau kat Malaysia harga baju rm50+ adalah kategori mahal dan out of league sedangkan 15000 won di korea adalah harga yang boleh dipertimbangkan andai baju tu lawa gila.

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Baru mendengar a jumble of songs dari zaman dahulu kala. Ahaha. One thing about Farini : Farini sangat suka lagu berciri persahabatan dan semangat lah. Lagu cinta yang meleweh-leweh macam tak berapa main. Sebab semua macam tipu belaka. Kan dah kata, saya ialah seorang yang sangat realistik tentang relationship.

And the list goes on. Nak dengar? Pergilah korek imeem atau youtube. Eheh.

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Selamat pagi. Saya seharusnya dah on my way to Hana Square untuk discussion term project. Tapi air tak panas-panas, maka saya tak mandi-mandi. Haha.

Sebelum bangun tidur pagi tadi mimpi ngeri secara melampau woo. Tidur selepas subuh memang tak elok lah. Jangan tidur selepas subuh.

Membaca blog Chika (blog Chika sama sekali tidak memerlukan promosi ini) saya terperasan sesuatu. Chika semenjak telah bertunang semacam semakin banyak berubah. Dari tshirt dah pakai tunic. Dari tak minum yogurt telah minum yogurt secara banyak sebab encik tunang suruh. Er dua jek. Bukan lah. Dua itu cuma contoh yang saya tahu. Contoh yang Chika sendiri tahu mungkin lebih banyak. Er apa kata next post Chika listkan lah perubahan-perubahan yang telah dibuat. Er haha. Semacam kepoh hal Chika lah pulak kan. Bukanlah. Nak kata tentang saya. Mari membuat persoalan. Adakah saya pun kalau dah bertunang akan berubah begitu? Adakah akan mendengar kata tunang saya dengan sangat dengar dan tak ada bantah membantah walaupun disuruh makan yogurt yang memang saya pandang pun tak mahu? Adakah? Belum tahu. Dan hey, belum akan bertunang. Jangan membuat spekulasi. Saya cuma fikir.

5 minit lagi should start discussion. Er cepatlah panas air. Minggu ni gak pergi complain kat juin (landlord) apesal heater ni kejap ok kejap kong.

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We finished our Chemistry exams just the night before yet I still feel a heavy burden on my back today. One, I was unable to go back to sleep because I hadn't finish my lab report. Two, I waited for half an hour but still the heater kept getting error thus left me with chilly water for morning shower. Three, no matter how hard we worked we still ended up last to finish the experiment and today it stretched until 1 p.m. Four, I was on my third or fourth spoon of maggi when a fly landed into it, I had to cook a new one. Five, I leisured a bit after summarizing a 6-pages thesis before doing my Asar prayer, thus resulted to me having to walk real fast up to KUMC gate, run from KUMC gate straight down to the intersection at Isaac and walk real fast again to print the summary I wrote and arrive at Liberal Studies Hall 5 minutes before class. Six, the summary I wrote was rejected. When I think about it, it was after all a long, hard day.

But few things cheered me up. I, at last, walked up the small hill I showed you in picture a few post ago. It was beautiful. The leaves were fully red. I wish I had a DSLR instead of just a handphone camera so I can capture the beauty. But then again I don't think I'd make a good-enough cameraperson. Plus DSLR is hyper expensive I had to give up my airfare if I want to have one.

As I walk to school today I remembered the thing Mekdi said a few weeks before when she came over with Lion for a visit. She said something along the line of, "Mesti pernah rasa gak kan? Rasa yang kau-nak-tanya-aku,-kau-la-datang-kat-aku." We were on the subject of why those who got ok marks on exams seem to be a bit different from ordinary people. Now that I think about it, maybe it's true, they had those feelings. But not in a sort of proud, berlagak way, more to they don't want others to go, Ingat-kitorang-nub-sangat-ke? if ever they go fuss around others about something they never asked me about. It's something they learn. That it is extremely sensitive to ask anyone else about how he/she is doing in his/her studies without him/her asking them first.

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Kan semalam saya keluar ke tesco shopping pepero. Pagi ni bahu macam nak patah. Pepero berat gile. But still saya tak tahu macam mana nak menghantar pepero ke DYTC. Besar kemungkinan akan turun ke sana lah. Tapi tempat lain for e.g HYU tak tahu lagi lah. Meh la datang KU claim pepero masing-masing meh.

Pepero is my mean of appreciations to those who had spent time listening to me, cheering me up, making me happy, and sometimes just for being there in my life. Semalam I almost give up and decided I'll buy chocolates instead. But giving out chocolates would no longer make things special. Lagipun this is for people who had done a lot for me. And it's only once a year that I actually get something for them. Finding pepero with no shortening proved to be no easy feat, especially since lotte decided to add shortening in their already-yummy-without-shortening plain/almond/chocolate-filled pepero. The ones I bought for the junior last year had also added shortening. Duh. I ended up buying and giving out only 2 types of pepero. And I'm sorry if it's not yummy enough. All that matters are the thoughts kan? Er tapi kenapakah ada 2 types of pepero? Bukan kah azam baru hendak menyayangi semua orang secara sama rata? Ada bagi pepero lain-lain? Er ikut sukalah. Penyibuk betul.

Kali pertama I got a pepero from Moshitta. Ehe. We were still at SNU learning language. It was Friday. We had our maths class. Me and one half of the batch in a class, and he is in another half. I was happily descending the staircase, hugging my BIG box of pepero that Bat bought me when I saw him at the vending machine. So I hurried and asked, "Beb, nak pepero." He muttered something but smiled all along, pushed a button and handed me the chocolate-filled pepero from Lotte that came out from the vending machine. (Time tu pepero tersebut masih boleh dimakan.) So that's how I got my pepero first pepero. We were those kind of friends back then. Kawan yang baik.

Gambar pepero kena later lah. Nanti spoil the sport sebab semua orang dah tahu what type I bought. Ehe.

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Hari hujan di luar. Buku Chemistry yang sebelum ni nampak cantik, kini dipandang sebelah mata. Haih~ Lambat betul otak nak bergerak.

Semalam AGM PPMK. Datang seperti biasa membazir waktu. Balik dinner dengan junior 83. Aik? Bukankah junior 83 tak best? Adalah banyak yang tak best. Tapi mungkin juga ada 2,3,4,5 yang best. Lagipun azam baru saya ialah untuk menyayangi semua orang. Which means tak ada main tak kawan, tak ada main puak. Tak ada main busuk hati, tak ada main dengki. Semua orang mesti disayangi sama rata walaupun mereka buka cerita tentang saya di belakang. Semua orang mesti disayangi sama rata walaupun mereka tak menyayangi saya. Haha. Tapi tak apa. Sayang menyayang sesama umat Islam itu kan perlu.

Hari ni kalau mengikut schedule mahu berpepero shopping. Tapi hari hujan. Kepada yang nak membelanja pepero, sukacita dimaklumkan agar berhati-hati ketika memilih pepero tersebut. Janganlah terbeli yang mengandungi shortening yang tidak dimaklumkan apakah kandungan shortening tersebut. Nanti kesian orang yang anda sayang kerana tidak boleh memakan pepero tersebut. Dan kesianlah terhadap wang anda. Haha.

Saya mahu bershopping buku lagi bolehkah? Nak mengcompletekan siri The Clique. Atau ada sesiapa yang nak belikan saya birthday present in advance? I just need The Clique, Best Friend for Never, Dial L for Loser and the complete set for The Clique's Summer Collection please. Thank you =)

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This is taken this morning at approximately 8.15 a.m. The atmosphere was a bit hazy. This is the path I take to school everyday. In view is the Science Library building. The yellow leaves were gorgeous.

In solid class this morning, I further designed my wedding dress. Haha. Tapi sebab dah bosan sketching, saya install Agile Messenger on my touchie and weee~ I now got to chat during class on YM. Pffftt~

Masa tengah tunggu chemistry class start and I was fumbling with touchie, Poh asked me, "What do you want to do after you graduate?"

I wasn't trying to look cool by sounding ignorant about my future. The truth is I honestly don't know what to do next. All my life, I had other people mapping things out for me. I went with the flow. Instead of thinking what I like and what I want, I ended up choosing the path a lot of others take. And I learn to love it. And so I don't really know what do I do next. People expected a lot from me. I expected a lot from myself. I hope to contribute to the people.

But as I sat down, pondering over Poh's question, maybe, just maybe, my life isn't just about being big and fulfilling expectations. Maybe being happy is just enough. Maybe I spent too much time having sky-high dreams, I need to come back down to earth.

And as I read the question on the surveys we have to fill after chemistry class, asking, "What do you want to do after graduation?" I feel like tearing the paper apart. Didn't I just say I don't know?

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Disebabkan hati semacam tak berapa sedap untuk meneruskan study chemistry, kepala pun asyik berdenyut-denyut, jantung pun berdetak-detak, walaupun tak berapa faham kenapa, mari menulis.

Say hai kepada Arissa bt 'Ammar. Si 'shumi shumi shumi' menurut kata Ardini atau boleh lah sekarang dipanggil sebagai Kak Ni. Ahaha. Yes! Akhirnya Dini menginherit my name. Oh ya. Setelah ditranslate oleh Kak Awin, dapatlah difahami bahawa shumi shumi shumi pada bahasa Ardini (Kak Ni) membawa maksud comel comel comel.

Event dua. Annual dinner PPMK yang super fabulous. Dari dewan ke makanan ke punctuality majlis berakhir. Satu je yang tak berapa berkenan : performance. Atau saya seorangkah yang memandang opening performance itu macam kurang appropriate? Memandangkan tak berapa banyak suara yang keluar mengenainya. Er tapi kita fokus pada dewan lah bukan. Nanti kalau saya kahwin, saya sangat mahu dewan sebegitu, tahu? Er tapi nantilah. Mari kita mengira dulu duit dalam bank ada berapa. Haha.

Akhir-akhir ini sangat ramai orang tanya saya bilakah nak bertunang. Kelas Solid Mechanics telah bertukar menjadi kelas mendesign cincin kahwin. Kelas Production Engineering telah bertukar menjadi kelas mendesign baju kahwin. Ahaha. Tapi saya masih belum akan berkahwinlah. Kamu jangan buat spekulasi sesuka hati. Scribbling during class memang habit saya dari dulu bawa ke sekarang. Mendesign baju dan cincin bukan bermaksud dah nak kahwin lah. Mungkin juga bermaksud saya nak menghadiahkan design tersebut kepada orang lain. See. Saya? Mari meletakkan semua benda on hold sehingga saya pasti bila saya akan habis belajar dan apa akan saya buat bila habis belajar. Sekarang masa depan masih kabur-kabur ayam.

Sebenarnya hari ni ada perasaan berat yang amat sangat dalam hati. Sebab dah menyebabkan 6 orang lain terpaksa menulis report lab dengan kesalahan besar. Sebab saya salah menyukat air, maka seluruh experiment menjadi salah. Dan langsung menyebabkan orang lain semua salah. See. Sangat rasa bersalah.

Anyways, mari berkongsi gambar pemandangan dari tangga dari bangunan lab saya.

Saya sangat suka bukit ni sebenarnya. Kalau gambar besar sikit, ada tangga menghala ke science library dan di kiri kanan tangga tu ada barisan pokok dengan daun merah. Sangat cantik. Waktu spring bukit ini dipenuh bunga kaler pink. Tapi tak ada gambar. Nantilah pergi meminta-minta dari orang lain gambar pada musim bunga. Tapi bukit ni memang cantiklah. Dan saya menyimpan cita-cita nak berjalan ke atas bukit tersebut. Er bukan. Bukan mendaki bukit seperti dengsan. Bukit ni kecik saja lah. Maksudnya saya teringin menyusuri jalan yang di lining oleh pokok daun merah tersebut. Berciri romantik di situ. Sekian terima kasih.