Busy Week

- Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Busy Week

Assalamualaikum

Hari ini sejuk. Tadi pagi bangun pukul 8. Switch off morning call. Tido balik. Bangun 8.30a.m terus gi mandi. I actually have to drag myself out of the hot shower since I got class at 9. Keluar bilik air tengok jam dah 8.55. Lazily and leisurely, I got ready for school. Sampai skola 9.10a.m. Ahahaha, hari ini saya tak tertipu lagi dengan cikgu tu. Kelas pun kosong. Turun minum choco milk dulu. Haaihh.. knape la the only hot drinks yang available is coffee. SAYA TANAK MINUM KOPI LAGI LAAA!!! Dah la hari sejuk, minum choco milk yang sejuk beku tu lagi pulak.



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Semalam saya baru siap buat report Applied Maths malam tadi. Dan ye, saya buat atas kertas kaler pink :p. Bestu kertas A4 putih dah abes. Rasa2 cikgu tu terima tak ek? Ke dia nak suruh saya salin balik? Gile banyak tu. Malam tadi amek masa sejam siapkan satu soalan. Dah siap pastu tengok jawapan salah, kne buat balik. Sungguh mencabar kesabaran. Bayangkan dah brape puluh partial fraction dibuat nak dapat kan sebutan yang betul. Keluar semua cos, sin, exponential entah ape2, tengok2 salah. Buat balik dari atas. Lagi menyampah kalau ade partial integration. Argghh.. sungguh jeles dengan Kiki yang tak payah susah2 kire bende bukan2.


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2-3 hari lepas, time bosan2, buat kali ke 3 nye saya repeat tengok Witch Yoo Hee (or Witch Amusement. Mane2 la~). 마녀유희 dalam bahasa korea. And there is this line yang lelaki tu cakap.

여자는 그런 것 있잖아요. 애인이 생기면 같이 하고 싶은 것.
Don't girls always have those kind of things? The things they want to do together with their boyfriends, if they have a boyfriend.

Umm.. well. Saya tak pernah pulak fikir bende2 macam tu? What about you? But well, kalau nak suruh saya list down kan what would I like to do together.. Umm.. let's think about it.

1. Go to theme parks or zoos or just parks.
Practically any place that reminds me of childhood. Actually ade banyak tempat yang saya pergi and nak pergi waktu kecik, tapi bile dah besa dah tak pergi. And I can't go with friends sebab nanti diorang kata saya macam budak kecik. Duh~ But IF I have a boyfriend, saya akan drag dia ikut saya. Hahaha. Tak kisah la kalau dia nak kata saya macam budak2. 연애는 원래 유치한 거다. Love is originally childish.

2. Fishing/Picnics.
Pelik kan? Entah. Fishing cam bes jek. Only that no one is going to come with me kalau saya kata nak pergi. While waiting nak dapat ikan tu, boleh bersandar kat pokok, reading. Ooppss, lelaki jarang membaca. Hurm.. And then bawak kain checkered merah putih tu jadi alas duduk. Ade bakul makanan. Hahaha~

3. Rowing.
Naek sampan kat tasik macam dalam tv tu :p *dasar pengaruh tv. haha* Ok la, kalau tak rowing sampan pun, at least bot yang kayuh2 tu. Tak pun naek gondola around Venice ke.... Oh, romantik sungguh. Bluweekk :p Jauh sungguh berangan. Padahal dok Korea jek.

4. Painting.
Saya suke painting. Even when I'm bad at it. Seriously, painting saya tak pernah jadi. Tapi saya suke jek nak maen dengan kaler. Especially tengah2 autumn ni, pokok tengah penuh dengan daun merah kuning dan hijau. Bes kalau buat painting.

Umm.. yang laen tak tau lagi. Nanti saya fikir okeh. By the way, pasal idea picnic tu, Alin gi la suggest kat papa nak picnic winter ni. Bleh bawak Dini skali. Gi Bekuk ke. Memane la. Dah lame tak gi bercuti tau. Haaihh~

Quote of the day : 복스럽게 먹는 여자가 아름답다 A girl who eats with appetite looks prettier


Till then =)

Sunday Siege

- Sunday, October 28, 2007

SUNDAY SIEGE

Assalamualaikum

Ah, dah hujan! Patut la gelap semacam dari pagi tadi. I was thinking it was because I still haven't roll up my bedroom curtain.

Saya baru lepas mandi. Typical Sunday. Mandi lepas siege. Was great. The siege, I mean. Goddard slalu tak bosan macam Gludio. Being the most precious castle. Haaaiihh~ I hope C6 comes soon. Then we can take Rune Castle. And I'm going to be Lady of Rune. Sounds nice, right? Haha. Berangan lebih. Clan of the leader of ally always get the best castle. Not fair. They should give it to the best clan instead. Uh~ Scarsion, nanti bile ko naek jadi leader, sila gulingkan Essex dari takhta. Ok no? :p

Hari ni open house umah Lion-Ain. Rasa berat lak nak gi. Sebab pertama : no one is coming with me. Nanti saya segan gile macam time gi rumah McD hari tu. Sebab kedua : hari hujan =). Rainy days always is the best excuse not to go out. Haha. Tapi stay at home pun tak tau nak buat ape. Kalau saya gi buat kek nanti Kelly menjerit sebab tak tunggu dia. Ape lagi. Mari sambung maen Diner Dash Flo on the Go sampai abes. I'm at level 47. Struggling to get another expert score.

Tapi pun.. saya rasa nak keluar jalan2. Nak Krispy Kreme. Ejat's birthday is coming. I wanna go and get her something. Dalam erti kata laen, saya nak pergi Myeongdong. Umm.. And there is this nice movie showing. Been wanting to see it since ages. And I want to check Converse out. Tapi, exam is coming. Haaihh~

아파도 아프다고 할 순 없고
사랑해도 사랑한다고 할 수는 없다
되게 불쌍하지?

Busy Busy Busy

- Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Busy Busy Busy

Assalamualaikum

Mood akhir2 ni nampaknye agak kurang stabil. Kekadang ok, kekadang tak. Ok, honestly, yeah there's sort of something in my mind. Or to be more honest than honest, I am actually rethinking the whole situation. Uh~~

In the meantime, schedule saya dah packed. Dalam jangkamasa terdekat ni, umm.. esok exam japanese language and test circuit for graduation project and dinner umah Dira, lusa baking with Kelly (yaayy!!), Sabtu ade karnival sukan PPMK. Bercakap pasal karnival sukan, saya tak letak name untuk maen ape2 pun. Ye, saya kaki bangku. Sekian terima kasih. Ade ke Dause suggest saya maen lari dalam guni. Dia kata nanti orang tak nampak saya lari. Dalam ertikata laen, guni itu lebih besar dari saya. Cehh. Ha ha ha hampagas~

Umm.. dalam jangkamasa panjang lak, Sabtu minggu depan lagi ade exam Applied Maths, minggu depannye lagi exam Automotive Engineering, minggu depan2 nye lagi Refrigerating and Air Conditioning Technology. Pffftt~ Sebulan exam...

Actually tak abes study lagi untuk paper esok. Hirakana dah ok dah. Takde la terer, but at least bleh la tulis. Walaupun terkial2. Chinese character? Umm.. rasanye sume dah blaja time kat SNU dulu. Tinggal korek from the back of my mind. Korek memory yang elok2 jek. Yang buruk2 tu sile delete terus dari recycle bin okeh.

I did tell you my mood is a bit low, didn't I? Umm.. takpela. Lepas tido ok kot ni. Meanwhile, saya nak share this pic yang saya sangat suke. Walaupun orang dalam gambar ni tak suke.

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Was an old pic. Gambar zaman muda. Level 3 at SNU kot time ni. Zaman kami masih sama2 merangkak cakap korea. Bajet skarang dah terer jek :p Tak tau ape yang special pada gambar ni, tapi saya suke. Ade Eff kat blakang tu. And there was Fanco, tempat lepak minum hot choco bile time sejuk nak gi student's cafe kat bawah tu. Time ni tengah homecoming. We were host sebab kitorang junior time tu. Note that we both we wearing blue and black. Tak dirancang okeh :p como el cielo y las estrellas tu y yo somos un retrato perfecto

And here too, nak share this video by Seo Nyeo Shi Dae. Admit it. They all look beautiful.

이세상 속에서 반복되는 슬픔 이젠 안녕
Now goodbye to all those sadness that's been coming again and again before

Choco Cakes, Hot Shower and a Hug =(

- Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Choco Cakes, Hot Shower and a Hug =(

Assalamualaikum

Mari gelak beramai2 untuk paper CAM tadi. Ahahahahaha~ Saya memang selalu camni. Bile tahap tekanan mencapai paras maksima jek mesti rasa nak tergelak. Tak tau kenape. *padahal dah gile dah tu tandanye :p* Err.. paper tu.. ntah. Tak berani nak confident sangat. Insya Allah. Rasanya yang dibaca semua bleh jawab. Yang tak terbaca tu wallahualam~

Sebenarnye nak update ni dari semalam lagi. Tapi sebab busy study *ye, saya study!* tak berkesempatan lak. Ok~ 2 days ago, saya call Dina, my longest best friend. Dina dan saya kawan semenjak darjah 2. Up till now. Dulu waktu di sekolah rendah, kami selalu jalan ke sana ke mari berpegangan tangan. Kalau gi toilet, masuk 1 cubicle 2 orang. Haha. Kitorang time tu kecik lagi okeh. Darjah 3 kot. Masuk darjah 4 dah tak macam tu dah. We shared lots of stories. Lots of laughs. And lots of cries. Dina confessed pada saya kali pertama tentang 1st puppy love dia. Though now that I think about it, I don't think it was love. Saya cerita pada dia tentang 1st crush saya. But well, let's keep those things secret, shall we? :D We watched each other grow in our own different way. Dina is a future doctor. I am a future engineer.

Anyway, Dina kata pada saya, kalau saya call, mesti ade something. Saya jarang call diorang kalau takde ape. Jauh laa..~ Uhm.. in truth there is something that played on my mind at the moment I called her, but being me, walaupun saya call kawan2 kerana ade problem, sometimes saya x cakap pun problem tu dengan diorang. Just gabbing on the phone with them soothe me in a strange way. Mungkin kerana they reminded me that I still have other things to think and worries other than those things I was worrying about. And so, saya x beritahu Dina ape yang berlaku. Instead we talk and catch up on each others' lives. Turned out she spent her raya in hospital. Operate appendiks. Duh~ And dia kata Adeeb tak datang visit pun though Adeeb tau dia sakit. Hampeh punye Adeeb. Haha~ And Dina planned to get married on her final year!!! Kami sama2 ade lagi 2 tahun before graduating which means after a year, she's getting married. Oh well, tu pun kalau parents dia nak bagi la. I remembered the last time she asked, parents dia suruh habiskan belajar dulu. But dia sangat siryes kata nak kawen. And she wants it to be grand. Duh~ Ape2 jek. But at least I was able to go to sleep thinking about her instead of other stupid thoughts.


Ini ialah Dina dan bakal suami :p


And today, I'm sooo desperately in need of chocolates. Anything with cocoas would do. Choco cake. Choco milk. Hot choco. Choco ice-cream. Bonga ppang. Haha~ Ape tibe2 masuk bonga ppang. Tadi exam CAM dah pressure. Balik rumah pressure lagi. Haaiihh~ Terus saya cancel plan makan patbingsu dengan budak2 kelas. I just want hot shower, choco cakes and the comfort of my duvet. And a hug. If I could get any.

Didn't I tell you coming out to the world will only make things more complicated?

Diari Pagi Minggu

- Sunday, October 21, 2007

Diari Pagi Minggu

Assalamualaikum

Just got up. Though morning call dah bunyi since pukul 8 tadi. Saya mimpi we are nearing graduation. But strangely, we didn't graduate together. Budak electronics graduate dulu before us. And I got bouquets of flowers. But they weren't as big as the ones Zatul and Dira got. Pffftt~ I remember eyeing their flower jealously. Haha :p And oh yeah, both the bouquets were given by anonymous person(s). I didn't even know whether the senders of both flowers were the same person or not. He/She asked someone else to give it to me. Without cards or anything. I can't really remember the 1st bouquet. It was a bit pale and dull. But the 2nd one was beautiful. A few shocking pink roses with deep red wrappings and green leaves as decoration. 6 or 7 of them, I guess. And it smelled really sweet. Unlike those at shops. Oh well, you know that roses at shops don't really smell as nice as people said roses are. And anyway, I had never seen a shocking pink rose before... It was beautiful really. But still, I hope I got a big one like Zatul and Dira got. Apekah??:D And oh yeah, that day wasn't my graduation day. It was the electronics students'. So I did wonder why did people send me flowers that day. Well, anyway, that was the last dream I remember before I woke up.

Today as the song If Only Tears Could Bring You Back To Me played, I actually cried. Haha~ Bukan kerana lagu itu. Uhm... ok. I did promise to be a bit open in this blog, didn't I? Well, I'm not really the kind of person who holds grudge against people. I used to think I was, when I was younger. Those years when I thought playing the troubled teenagers would make me look cool. Duh~ But no. Right now I know I'm definitely not that kind of person. And as much as I hate having to stay mad at one people, I hate having people mad at me too. Saya benci bile ade orang benci saya. I understand that when 2 people fights, both sides would think that they are the right ones. But I am ready to say sorry. In fact I've said it tons of times. I admit that closed friends been saying it's not my fault. That I don't lose anything not being friends with that person. But somehow I just can't rest assure. For I'd never have people staying mad at me for so long. Therefore I cried. For I wonder am I that bad a person? Am I that bad a friend? That when I did one mistake, my so-called-friends can't even forgive me? Am I expected to be a miss-perfect-with-no-mistakes that when I did one wrong decision which was based on my unstable emotions at that moment makes me unworthy to befriend? And this isn't the first time I cried over this. This fight has been stretched since forever. And still, I am not forgiven. It makes one portion of me hates myself.

Dah la.. saya nak pergi mandi *while crying in the shower, of course*

To you, if you read this, I still am waiting for you to forgive me.

Till then.

Mid Term is Here

- Saturday, October 20, 2007

Mid Term is Here!

Assalamualaikum

Believe it or not, mid term is already here. And believe it or not, so does winter. Haha =) Nah~ Just kidding. I think it's going to be warmer by next week. Last year there was a brief period where autumn felt like winter too, I remember. It was 5 degrees when I went out for class this morning. But it felt like 1 degree. Brr~

Baru balik dr officetel aka hostel. Study group. Nak caya, caya. Tanak caya, sudah. Ye, saya bukan jenis orang yang selalu berstudy group. Tapi best la gak study ramai2. Meriah sket. Budak mechanical design memang cool~ Tapi yang tak best, tak boleh nak berguling2 bile hilang mood. Ade mood ke takde mood, kena settle gak everything. And esok kitorang kena sambung ngn presentation powerpoint. Mesti korang rasa tak canggih buat presentation pakai powerpoint kan? Lantak la. Dah cikgu suruh powerpoint, ape nak menyusahkan diri buat canggih2 lak.

Next week saya ade paper japanese dengan CAM. 2-2 tinggal hafal jek. So tak berat sangat. In the meantime, untuk menjawab soalan Kiki dan semua orang di Malaysia yang tak tau ape itu patbingsu, sile tengok gambar di bawah.



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Ini ialah semangkuk patbingsu. Atau dalam bahasa Melayu hampir kepada ais kacang. Tapi this one ade fruits. You can see the kiwis and watermelons and apples. Kacang ade di seblah sana. And then on top of it ade ice cream and cornflakes. Yumm~





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Ini pula ialah fruit waffle. Look at the amount of creams, sugar and choco syrup. Oleh kerana itu, saya tak boleh komplen kalau sakit gigi. Sekian, terima kasih.

Anyway, malam tadi masa kluar makan patbingsu ni, hujan turun. Balik tu beku2 kitorang. Sampai la pagi ni. Dan kerana sejuk, gigi saya lebih sakit dari biasa. Oh ye. Saya tak cakap ke saya sedang sakit gigi? Nak gi dentist tapi malas. Nanti la. Tunggu sampai hari Isnin.

Ok. Nak guling2 bosan. Semua orang tengah study untuk exam next week. Budak mechanical design memang selalu free camni. Takyah la berasa pelik ye.

Till then~

Autumn Leaves

- Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Autumn Leaves

Assalamualaikum

I was just thinking of going to see the autumn leaves a few days ago. And today I saw a park full of them on our way to Gwangmyeong, searching for the supposedly nearest LG Telecom's office. But no biggie, I get to see the leaves after all.

Last year, autumn passed just like that to me. I was so busy with school and stuffs that I didn't get the time to go see any. So did the spring. And on summer there's nothing to see. I like winter. I don't know why it always reminds me of theme parks. Must be because my first winter here, we went to Everland. It was super cold and we weren't that adjusted with the weather. Linda and Zatul dragged me for the roller-coaster ride. The one with the double Os. I was so scared that I couldn't even screamed like they both did. And by the time I finished taking my second ride which was the swinging and spinning ride (I can't remember the name), I vomit there and then. And afterwards they didn't dare to push me to take any ride anymore. Oh, well. Except the Columbus ride. And you know I won't ever talk about that anymore. Uh~

I had a great summer. And I am looking forward to a great autumn too. And I think I'm already off to a great start. Though I'm going to be a bit busy these few weeks with my graduation projects and exams, I think I might be able to steal some times off my not-that-packed schedule and plan a picnic with friends. We can reminisce our first autumn here when we all went having a stroll at Seoul Park and took silly pictures and ate the uhmm.. not-that-delicious corn for breaking the fast, though we won't be fasting if we go this time. Ke korang dah ade orang lain nak ajak pegi, so dah tanak gi ngan aku dah? :p

Anyway, it's already 4.26p.m. I want to lie down a bit before preparing dinner and get to homeworks. Autumn is a bit cold and I need lots of food. Only that since I have a toothache right now, I can't be eating much. And why is it now of all time that I want to eat cakes, chocolates, patbingsu, cookies and all the sweet things?? Duh~

And oh yeah, on my way home after meeting with our lecturer about our graduation project, Hyo-seok oppa called me from the students' cafe. Asked me to join him and his friends eating kimbab and snacks. Been a few times since he asked me, really. But I'd been telling him that I was fasting. Not a lie. I was fasting, was I not? But now that he knew Ramadhan is over, telling him I'm still fasting will lead to another complicated explanation of why I am fasting. So instead, I told him that my boyfriend is coming over, though obviously he isn't. Lies. I know. I hate to have to lie. But later on, I will have to lie even more when he asked me next time. I mean, I can't just tell him that I hate the idea of having to eat while looking at hams and porks in front of me, can I? Besides, 난 애인 있거든. I know he never meant to hit on me, but going out with another guy for lunch or dinner or even snacks just doesn't seem right.

Till then.

Tipah Tertipu

- Tuesday, October 16, 2007

TIPAH TERTIPU!!!

Assalamualaikum

Hari ini lecturer err.. saya tak tau ape nama subjek tu dalam bahasa melayu mahupun bahasa inggeris. Haha~ Yang pasti it was something about refrigerating and how to keep our atmosphere clean and safe. Ok, anyway, lecturer itu telah berjaya menipu kami untuk bangun pagi jam 8 dan sampai di sekolah jam 9. Melepak sebentar sambil mengeratkan silaturahim dengan cara berborak2 dan saling mengenali teman2 sekelas dengan lebih mendalam *saya berjaya mendapat tahu tentang awek Ayie dengan cara ini. Haha~ Sampai jam 10 lebih sket, kakak yang kerja kat office department of mechanical and automation tu masuk. And guess what? Lecturer itu call kata dia tak sihat and dia nak buat kelas ganti sabtu ni. I don't mind extra class, tapi cakap la awal2. Argghh~ Dah bazir sejam duduk tak buat ape. Pagi2 nan sejuk lagi ni plak tu.

Tadi time tengah duduk melepak, satu sms datang dari LG Telecom. About my cellphone bills. Salah satu bende yang saya tak suke : bil tertunggak. Argghh~ Bukan tanak bayar. Tapi kalau dah bil tak sampai, camne nak bayar? Boleh jek bayar without bil, tapi kene gi LG punye office. Leceh. Next time nak suruh dia terus deduct dari account jek la. Dan oh ya, selepas campur dengan bil bulan lepas yang tak sampai itu, jumlah total saya kene bayar ialah 85200 won. Approximately RM300. Which means that bil saya bulan ini near 50 000 won *pengsan*. I reaaally need to change my calling plan. Tapi nak tukar itu pun kene ke office LG gak. Gi esok la. Alang2 takde kelas.


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UPDATES GAMBAR RAYA!


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Ey, kamu. Tengah usha siapa? =p



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Most of my batchmates =)



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From left : Jiji, Su, Kelly, Diyana, Dayah and Me



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Saya dan makanan yang menyebabkan saya sakit perut pada raya kedua. Arrgghh~


Ok2. Hari laen nanti update lagi. Kalau nak update semua gambar raya, seploh post pun blom tentu cukup.

See ya~

Update 3 Hari

- Sunday, October 14, 2007

Assalamualaikum


Ye la, ye la. Update la ni. Suruh update laju. Suruh komen, malas lak. Ceh~ Bukan saya tanak update. Reason 1 tak update : tade gambar. Sape suh korang lambat kasik :p. Reason 2 tak update : pc saye sedang bzzztt. Sok nak kene gi beli power supply baru. Uhh~ Ok. Get to the updates...

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Sehari Sebelum Raya

Pagi tu ade kelas automotive. Semangat gile gi skola pakai baju kurung. Ahaha~ Ade junior 85 yang siap bersamping gi kelas. Bajet dah raye jek. Ceh~ Balik tu memula ingat semangat nak masak. Tetibe Linda ajak mulakan operasi de-cockroach-ing. Linda kata tunggu 3 jam jek. Sementara tunggu tu, boleh la kitorang gi bershopping raya kat Namdaemun. Zatul sibuk nak carik selendang. Saya nak cari brooch. Linda nak cari rantai. Pape jek la..

Balik2 dah dekat buka. Linda terus keluar dengan Solihin. On the way balik time dengan Zatul tu, midsummer baby call, ajak buka sama. Haha~ Terpaksa Zatul dok umah sorang2. Tapi malam tu saya lak yang tinggal sendiri bila Zatul keluar dengan Eff. Tetibe Kak Awin buzz. Kate diorang makan ketupat, sambal goreng, sambal udang, rendang bla bla.. Argghh~ Time tu sebab dah penat shopping, kitorang tak jadi nak masak malam tu. Dengar Kak Awin cerite, dah rasa air mata nak meleleh. Gi call mama. Tapi sekejap je. Sebab kredit IDD dah nak abes. Mama kata diorang ajak jalan2 cari kasut raya. Sungguh terasa nak meraung. SAYA PUN TAKDE KASUT RAYA! SAYA PUN NAK IKUT JALAN2 CARI KASUT RAYA GAK! KENAPA SUME ORANG PERGI TAK BAWAK SAYA PUN!! Ok. Saya tau saya di mana. Saya tau family saya di mana. Dan ini bukan kali pertama. But being the spoilt me, at those kind of times, I'd like very much to have my best people with me. And kenyataannya malam itu saya sendirian. Dan setelah 2 kali raya di perantauan tak nangis, saya nangis malam itu. Ceh~


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Raya Pertama

Saya bangun awal pagi tu. Guling2 dalam selimut. Pukul 7, after making sure Zatul is making her way to my home, I made sure midsummer baby was already up. Get slowly to bath and by the time saya siap, it was 7.35a.m. And Zatul took almost an hour nak pakai selendang tu. Sungguh seksa jadi perempuan. Uhh~


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Ini ialah gambar duit raya saya. Hooraaayyyy~~ Saya ade duit raya. Sile jangan jeles! Duit raya dari orang yang sama yang beri saya duit raya 2 tahun lepas. Uhhh *bahagia*

And then cam biasa. Gi embassy. Makan segala macam benda yang ade. Amek gambar. Lepak2. Amek gambar lagi. Siryes bosan sebenarnye.


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Saya dan makanan :D


Malam tu beraya umah Jiji. Waktu2 saya kebosanan berguling di rumah, Jiji call. Ajak datang. Ade Diyana, Dira, Elly, Kelly, Aya, Farid Ganu, Norsi ngan Su. Meriah gak. Acara makan lagi dan lagi dan lagi. Diorang sibuk cerite kek Diyana ngan puding Su. Nak gak try rasa. Tapi tak sempat lagi. Tunggu la besok2 saya sampai hostel k? Haha~

Raya pertama..... saya sebenarnye sedikit sedih sebab tak dapat nak cakap sangat dengan papa, but thanks especially to midsummer baby for trying his best to cheer me up=) I really appreciate it.


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Raya Kedua

Kitorang supposed to have a siege today. Tapi sebab pc saya meragam. And saya pun malas nak menyakitkan hati sendiri dengan trying to keep the power on, saya biar saje. Instead, saya start bersihkan rumah. Kawan2 nak datang beraya hari ni =)

Masak soto sebab elly asyik tanye. Besides, masak soto la yang paling senang. Lagipun saya kena kemas rumah lagi. Saya tak ikut ke rumah tunperak, ex-leader kami before ArmmaRov. Jauh. Lagipun saya sendiri ade tetamu.

After maghrib baru diorang sampai. And this time Fafa pun datang skali. Err.. Fafa ialah seekor kucing peliharaan Bat. Hobi Fafa ialah bermanja2, menggigit dan mencakar sume budak rumah Bat. Tapi strangely, hari ni Fafa sangat baik di rumah saya. Takde hyper active cam kalau kat umah diorang.

Dalam kol 8, gerak ke rumah Farid Ganu. Sambutan raya batch. Makan2 lagi. And then main timbang berat. Berat saya naek sekilo semenjak timbang yang lepas. Horaayy~ Tanda2 peningkatan berat badan :p. Lepas makan, kitorang gi main bunga api and mercun kat Annyang Cheon (Sungai Annyang to those yang tak tau). Hyper sejuk. By the time saya sampai rumah, tangan dah beku. Rumah saya terasa sangat hangat, compare to the chilling night.


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Me and my constant companion =)


See ya~

Edisi Bosan ke 2

- Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Edisi Bosan ke 2

Assalamualaikum

Saya tak suke hari rabu. Mainly sebab sume orang gi kelas until 9 p.m dan saya terbiar sorang diri kat rumah berguling2 atas ibul. Ceh~ Padahal Zatul ngan Linda ade jek. Tapi disebabkan midsummer baby sorang gi kelas, makanya saya pun bosan la. Nama pun constant companion kan? Ditambah pula bulan ramadhan ni, pas kelas dia straight gi terawih kat Bilik Malaysia. Kirenye saya duduk terkapai2 seorang diri dari pukul 6.10 p.m sampai la pukul 10.30 p.m. Lame tu... Haiihh~

Baru jek lepas masak megi. Ayam. Taruk lada ngan telur. Tapi makan cuit2 sket jek pastu dah tanak makan dah. Even though saya cume makan filet udang and haemul ttaeng sepanjang hari. Tak rasa lapar sangat pun. Tapi saya decide untuk makan sebab saya takde ape nak buat. Ahahaha~ Makan sebab bosan. Mane tak berat naek berkilo2 kat Malaysia. Dah kalau hari2 bosan berguling2 kat rumah. Bila bosan jek makan. Bile makan jek bosan :D.

This morning I started doing the Hari Raya card for midsummer baby. Ek ehem.. bukan nak bagi kat dia okeh. Untuk dia bagi kat family dia. Bangun pukul 9, gosok2 mata. Capai kertas, capai pensel. Bukak design kat pc and start nak draw. Tapi tibe2 rasa tak tau nak lukis. Camne ek nak lukis? Duh~ Nampak sangat dah berzaman tak draw. Kalau setakat sketches conteng2 time kelas tu ok la. Ni nak buat lukisan yang siryes. Arghh~ Baru perasan dah lame tak pegang kaler pensel ngn pastel. Pemadam pun takde, okeh. Apatah lagi pengorek pensel. Kalau suh pegang berus agaknya pegang terbalik dah. Haha~

Waktu itu saya mengaku, semenjak bergelar student mechanical design engineering ni, lukisan semua hanyalah di atas lcd 19 inch wide screen saya. Kecuali praktikal kat skola la. Monitor tak pun lcd 15 inch jek. Ceh~ Kaler yang sinonim dengan student mcm sy ni confirm la kaler hitam minyak grease. Umm.. ade coklat2 sket la minyak tu. Tak pun kaler hijau mesin buruk dalam bengkel tu. Haha~

But somehow, I can't complain, can I? It's the path I chose to take. Walaupun realitinye it was the path yang orang laen pilihkan untuk saya :D And it's not like it hasn't been fabulous. Not like I got the worst CGPA in my year. Not like I was so busy with assignments and reports and classes that I don't have time to chill with friends. So, I won't complain. And u, midsummer baby, jangan complain kalau kad tu buruk ok. Nasib baek saya tak lukis kipas ke jambatan ke tiang lampu ke dan berbagai benda lain yang saya kene lukis kat skola. Uhh~

Till then =)

A Date to Remember

- Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Assalamualaikum

9 OKTOBER 2007

Ok. Sile ingat tarikh ini. Kerana pada hari ini saya telah melakukan sesuatu yang saya tak pernah buat sepanjang saya bergelar pelajar. Tak kisah la pelajar sekolah rendah ke sekolah menengah ke mahupun pelajar kolej seperti sekarang. Today I OFFICIALLY MISSED THE WHOLE 1ST PERIOD OF MY CLASS!! Demm~ Saya tak pernah lewat ke kelas. Bangun lambat macam mane skali pun, takde la sampai terlajak time kelas. Argghh~ Kerana cellphone saya habis bateri, so there was no morning call. And by the time saya terjaga, it was already 9.33. Diulang, 9.33. Kelas saya patutnye pukul 9, okeh. Dan oleh kerana saya dah tau saya memang dah lewat, saya takde la tak mandi seperti *ehem* :D Instead, saya take time mandi, kemas bed and bersiap. By the time saya sampai sekolah it was 10.03.

Masuk dengan muke tak bersalah. Padahal time kat luar tu dah cuak camne nak cover. Bese la, orang tak pernah lewat. Confirm sume orang pun pelik knape saya lambat. Cess~ Terjejas jap imej model student saya. Haha =p Baru duduk 2-3 minit, dah break after 1st period. Gi meja Azman mintak notes yang saya tertinggal. Time belek2 notes Azman tu, Fairus tanye , "Ko malam tadi buat kuih raya ke?" Ayie lak kata, "Haah, aku tengok YM ko sign out kol 4 pagi. Ko tido lambat buat kuih raya ke?" Dause dah gelak sakan. Argghh~ Hampeh punye classmates. Ahahahah~ Confirm diorang bantai buat spekulasi apsal saya lambat hari ni. Bukan tau nak call kejut ke ape.

Tapi pun, weirdly, saya takde la rasa stress ke ape, even by the thoughts that skarang markah attendance saya akan rosak dengan perkataan LATE itu. Instead, saya rasa nak tergelak guling2. Coz it was something that had never happened to me. Sengaja lambat tu penah la. Tapi TERlambat ni rasanya tak pernah lagi. Lagi2 atas alasan terlajak tido. Ahahaha :D Nampak sangat 2-3 hari ni bantai tido sampai kol 10 pagi. Sampai biological clock pun tak leh nak alert bile kol 8.

Anyway, malam ni banyak kerja sebenarnya. Just taking a few minutes break off the work Eff asked me to help with. And oh yeah, akhir2 ni dah sejuk, as if in sejuk. Semalam time on the way balik dari bank, ade sehelai daun gugur depan mata saya (or should I say on top of my head?). Let's say welcome to autumn =)

Bosan Amat

- Monday, October 8, 2007

Bosan Amat!

Assalamualaikum

Punye la jenuh suruh orang update blog. Hampeh sume tanak update. Last2 saya update blog sendiri. Cehh~ Though I can say I'm living my life this way everyday, somehow today, unlike everyday, I was bored out of myself. Suddenly there's nothing to do and no one to talk to. Maybe gak sebab my precious lil sissy tengah sibuk layan Legolas. So bile saya buzz dia, jawapan dia ialah "KACAU LA." Ngeng sungguh adik saya. Anyway, sebab saya pun tengah bosan, so saya sendiri pun tak tau nak cerite ape.

Sila tengok gambar di bawah.

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Ni gambar kat CanMore semalam. Ade choco cake, cheesecake, strawberry peach, strawberry mango and my favorite potato wedges. Yumm~ Mule2 ingat nak makan fruit waffle. Tapi maybe sebab dah malam, so waffle dah takde. Fruit sandwich pun takde. Ceh~ Malas nak buat la tu. Tapi pape pun lepak CanMore best gile. Relaxing. Dulu saya selalu lepak sini bile emosi tak stabil. I spent my time sitting at the swings looking out of the window and cried. Sometimes I sat there alone to think about everything. But lately I am never there without company.


Tadi pagi during CAM class yang hyper bosan, saya usha Han Su Oppa main computer game. Sangat pelik camne pc yang dia gune tu boleh ade macam2 game. And tibe2 dia bukak satu game yang saya rasa macam nak menjerit tengok. PREHISTORIC 2!!! Sape tau game tu angkat tangan! Game tu game lame kat pc kitorang kat rumah. Before windows. Time tu kitorang gune NC. Argghh~ Sangat rindu... Before this ade gak cari game tu. Tapi tak jumpe. Ingat tadi nak copy paste jek file game tu kat mane2 USB drive and then bawak balik umah. Tapi dan2 tu la takde USB drive lak. I miss that game so much since it reminds me of my childhood. Huhu~ That game and Corridor 7 and Wolf3D. Xaxa~ I soooo missed playing those with my sisters. Now that I think about it, I almost laugh to the memories. Those times when we were still young. With not much to think of. But at that time, my head used to spin whenever I watched my brother played Wolf3D too much. Maybe it's the maze or maybe I just wasn't use to looking at the PC too much.


Three songs I would like u to listen to today :

1. Don't Say You Love Me by M2M

2. Fate (운명) from Full House's OST

3. Only Hope, Only Hope (바람만바람만) by SG Wannabe


Not that I don't want to upload it for you. But I don't know why can't I embed an Imeem player here. Anyone knows why?


Till then

My Busy Weekend

- Sunday, October 7, 2007

My Busy Weekend

Assalamualaikum

Takde la busy sangat sebenarnya pun. Sabtu tu gi 2001 outlet dengan Zatul. Cari hadiah Linda. Nothing special. Just bag. Menambahkan koleksi beg Linda yang dah berderet tu. Spotted beg Teenie Weenie yang sangat cantik. But point is saya takde outfit yang sesuai untuk dipakai dengan beg yang se'sweet' itu. Kalau dah kasut pun 24/7 sneakers, nak buat macam mane. Malam tu ade majlis buka puasa kat DYTC. Ade usrah skali dengan ustaz dari Malaysia. Actually memang biasanya bulan2 puasa ni ade program camni. So lepas usrah, macam biasa gak, gi lepak CanMore dengan junoritas =p. Akhir2 ni selalu lepak situ. Ade sesi berkenalan dengan background McD dan makan bersama pakwe Ejat, Gani. Ek ehem. Bukan Ijat tapi Ejat =p. Junior 67. Okla Gani tu. Budak Muar. Tak banyak cakap. Segan kot depan senior. Eheh~

Ahad. Siege day. Dan hari ini siege Gludio. Juga siege di mane saya banyak kali di pwned oleh musuh. Argh~ Enemy banyak gile di mane2. Stat deaths clan boleh mencecah 60+ even when the total of player online is only 11. *sorang mati 6 kali ke?* But Alhamdulillah, in about 10 minutes before siege ended the server crashed. And by the time saya sampai masuk balik castle *sambil ditembak oleh 2-3 orang from Legends clan* my name turned purple and the castle gate closed. Sign that the siege has ended and we were victorious once again. Pffftt~

After siege, terus straightaway prepare utk masak untuk junoritas. Nasi ayam je. Malas nak leceh2. Yang datang pun cume McD, Kila, Ejat ngan Dayu. Tu pun diorang makan banyak gile. Sambil lepak2. Nak bukak pillow talk cam awal sangat la plak. Dayu lak asyik terjerit-jerit maen game belon2 gemok guling2. Haha~

Anyway, tibe2 saya rasa.. SAYA MAHU PSP JUGA! in purple plix! Ejat beli murah jek. Saya pun mahu~ Uhh.. ade tak sesiapa nak belikan saya PSP ek? Anggap la hadiah birthday tahun depan, walaupun in truth that is like 3 months away. Tapi boleh tak ek. Is it ok if I put it in my birthday wishlist? Tapi kalau beli 3 bulan yang akan datang nanti dah buruk. Tapi siapa yang nak belikan saya sekarang, out of nothing? Atau perlukah saya mengorek tabung untuk beli?? T.T dilemma...

Tentang Bahagia

- Friday, October 5, 2007

Tentang Bahagia

Assalamualaikum

Title tak boleh blah kan? Dari malam semalam saya dah terfikir title ni. Even when I have zero ideas on what to write about it. Cuma saya rasa title tu sedap je. Kalau buat tajuk novel confirm laku :p Ok. Nanti ade masa saya tulis. Hee~

Hari ni saya dan midsummer baby keluar berbuka bersama. Diamlah kamu. Saya tau kamu nak gelak kan ayat saya. Cehh~ Makan sampai kenyang gile. Tak habis pun. Siap tapau bawak balik. Punya la lama melepak kat situ, sampai naek beku sebab duduk bawah air-con. Gelak sungguh tak bajet.

Actually plan hari ni nak ke Myongdong. Cari hadiah Linda. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINDA!!! Huhu. Tapi tibe2 rasa cam penat la plak. Jauh lak tu Myongdong. Sempat tido dalam tren. Haha. Alasan malas nak kluar rumah. So, postpone nanti je la ye. Saing time shopping raya ngan Zatul nanti.

Dalam berborak2 itu sempat la bertanya pada midsummer baby, bile birthday IJAT, buah hati pengarang jantung saya itu :D Tapi midsummer baby bleh kate tak tau lak. Kecewa sekejap. Haha~

Anyway, ok2. Berbalik pada topik di atas. Haiyoo~ Bleh lak buat post yang takde kene-mengene ngan title. Pffft~

A few weeks ago, saya chat dengan Syafiqah, my long-lost bestie at primary school. We were close and we both were a bit boyish. I could say she was more boyish than me though. But now she's definitely more feminine than me. Haha =)

Well, like long-lost friends do, we caught up with each other's life and like all girls do we brought up the subject of our significant others. One of the questions that I remember her asking was what is my idea of my perfect guy.

Oh well, 현명하고 멋있고 돈도 많고 또 성격까지 끝내주는 남자를 누가 안 좋아해? Who wouldn't like a guy who's intelligent, handsome, rich and even have perfect manners? Siapa yang tak suke lelaki yang bijak, kaca, kaya dan pandai mengambil hati? Kan? 그래도 내가 아무래도 나를 잘 받아줄 수 있는 남자를 더 좋아해. But somehow I prefer a guy who can accept me the as who I am. Saya lebih suka lelaki yang boleh menerima saya seadanya. That doesn't mean that he can't change me or I won't change my bad habits or anything. Only that I hope he would want to change me, NOT because he would be proud of having the perfect girl, but because he thinks that the change is good for me. Change me because he cares for me, NOT because he cares about his reputation or pride.

2nd question I remember her asking was whether or not I was happy.

Bahagiakah saya? Saya sendiri sehingga kini tak tahu jawapannya. Kerana saya sendiri saat ini masih belum benar-benar mengerti apa yang dimaksudkan dengan bahagia. Adakah bahagia itu ertinya kita gembira sepanjang masa? Without ups and downs? Kerana andai itu erti bahagia, saya tidak bahagia. Atau belum bahagia. Kerana saya masih ada waktu susah senang itu. Atau mungkin bahagia itu maksudnya 80% gembira 20% ups and downs? Atau mungkin bahagia itu maksudnya, walaupun ada ups and downs, ketika melalui ups and downs itu orang itu masih rasa bahagia? Gile ke? Tapi mane la tau kan? Ada gak orang yang begitu. Jadi konklusinya, saat ini saya masih tidak tahu tentang bahagia.

[edited : translation of the above paragraph] Am I happy? (Ok, happy is not the exact word. But using the word blissful would sound a bit too much) Coz up till now I, myself, don't really know what do people means by happiness. Do happiness means that a person is always happy and never have to go through hardships? Because if that's the definition of happiness, then, I'm not happy. Yet. Coz there's still times when I have to go through ups and downs. Or do happiness means 80% of the life is happy and 20% of it is hardships? Or do happiness means that a person is happy even when going through hardships? Are u crazy? But who knows? There is such person, right? So the conclusion is right now, I still don't know what do people mean by the word happiness.

But, again, there is no such things as picture perfect, is there?

Till then=)

Birthdays and Majlis Buka Puasa

- Thursday, October 4, 2007

Assalamualaikum

Sebenarnya nak update benda ni semalam. Tapi semalam imageshack sangat slow. So takleh nk upload gambar. Pagi ni baru ok sikit. Huhu~ Anyway, first thing first.
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Happy Birthday Dini!!!

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Ini ialah Dini waktu mula-mula dia lahir. Saya ingat lagi. Tiba-tiba Abg Ammar buzz YM saya bgtau dengan sangat gembira. Oh well, Dini lahir awal dari due date. Patut time raya, tapi puasa2 dia keluar.

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Ini lak latest pic of Dini yang Kiki bagi kat saya. Actually ade satu folder full dengan gambar dia. Tapi since this is the latest, so saya upload yang ini. Notice the 'palm tree' on top of her head and the way she sucks her forefinger. Comel amat! Uh~ Saya rindu Dini...

Oh anyway, Happy Birthday to Dayah too. Nanti pas kelas aku datang makan kek eh? =) Next story...

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Majlis Berbuka Puasa Bersama SR


Last post, saya tunjukkan pada kamu karipap yang saya buat kan? The karipaps and spring rolls are for breaking the fast with SR. SR is my clan at lineage2world. And in game, my nick is pphoenix. A few weeks ago, I'd been arguing with Scarsion on who's going to host another get together. So leader, that is Armmarov, decided that we all took part in it. A conference was made and we all decided this way. Sorry to the juniors for having to postpone our get together. I just didn't want to miss the clan's.

Chobo aka Abg Haaziq, with the help of the others, cooked this spaghetti (saya taktau ape nama dia XD) and it was simply superb. Rasa nak tambah tapi segan :">. And siryes sedap gile. Tak pernah tau Abg Haaziq terer masak. Mi WTB the recipe plix plox :p Scarsion made some caramel pudding. Damn. He actually pwned mi at making pudding. Well, I'm still a nab at cooking, really. Puding Scarsion lawa gile. And of course sedap la. Takde la lawa tapi tak sedap. Tapi Scars, apsal yang aku punya, bak kata Munir, cam kuah kicap?? :D

Ini pic yang amek before buka puasa tu. Dalam hujan renyai autumn~

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Nak kena kenalkan satu2 ke? Tak payah la kan? Standing on my right (which is the most left person of the front row) is Scarsion, the pudding maker. Also my buddy when I'm emo. Sebab bila saya emo dan rasa nak pvp, I'll go online and shout at clanchat : Scars, pvp fg jom!! And no matter how nab I am at pvping, he always comes with me. Senks mens >.<

Actually banyak lagi shots lain. There is this shot where I look weri fat. Huhu~ Sungguh tak boleh blah. Pics are credits to Chobo lagi :D Type of camera is the same as McD's. Kan?

I like this pic though.

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Mosh and phiniks : a neverending friendship :D

Err.. Perhatian! Perhatian! Gambar itu memang dishot blur. Bukan saya blur kan sendiri. Mi is photoshop nabski :">

Till tomorrow. GLHF =)

*the word nab is noob in ruslish. And most broken english I use is ruslish

*GLHF means good luck and have fun in case you don't know

Airticket, Karipap dan Cekodok Pisang

- Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Airticket, Karipap dan Cekodok Pisang

Assalamualaikum


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By pphoenix, shot with Anycall SPH-V9050 at 2007-10-02

Tahukah anda ape itu? Itu ialah airticket saya winter ini. Yes, I bought it. Yes, I'm going with MAS. Yes, I am currently broke. Please don't ask question =D





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Tahukah anda apa ini? Ini ialah salah sebiji karipap yang saya buat untuk esok. See Scarsion, karipap dah ade. Ape lagi? Mi pudding plix plox. And lawa kan saya kelim tepi tu. And yes it looks like a karipap, BUKAN bunga matahari, okeh. Ada ke my dearie Kiki kata saya kelim cam bunga matahari. Cess~
Tadi saya makan jemput2 pisang yang sangat sedap. Elly buat. Saya habiskan satu mangkuk okeh, despite the fact that I'm no fan of jemput2 pisang. Balik tu, time cerita pada midsummer baby, bising dia nak makan gak. Ceh~ Honestly, saya rasa ini kali pertama saya masak jemput2 pisang. Kerana bukan favorite saya dan saya pun tak pernah terfikir nak masak jemput2 pisang itu. Sedap tak sedap tu.. err.. nasib la ye. Not that I didn't warn you first hand =D
Ok2. Gotta go to sleep. Tak siap lagi semua kerja. Tapi kepala sangat letih working since 9 this morning. Sambung besok je lepas subuh.
Nite people =)

Hari Emo Sedunia

- Monday, October 1, 2007

Hari Emo Sedunia

Assalamualaikum

Sungguh tak mengerti kenapa hari ini emo yang melampau. Actually been a bit of an emo since the past week. Tapi hari ini sangat melampau. And as I much as you hate me in this state, I hate myself too. No. I hate myself in this state more than you hate me. I just felt like screaming my head off. Yet I want a hug to calm me and tell me that everything is actually ok. That it's just my stupid head feeding me with insane ideas. And I hate it all.

I cried today. My first crying in this relationship. Normally if I go emo with him, I just keep quiet and being cold all of a sudden. I storm around and cover my face with a pillow and scream. But today I actually cried. With tears and all. Padahal benda tu kecik je. And it's not like I don't understand things. Like the idiot I am. I kept telling myself to get a grip. To contain myself. Midsummer baby itu pun mesti dah pening kepala. Uhh~ sorry...

And today saya insist nak makan kat roll and pasta bila Zatul kata nak makan haemul topap. And being a good boyfriend he is, of course la Eff memihak pada Zatul. And though I know he was just joking, I got mad to his words. Ok. Mad is one of the reasons why I didn't go for dinner with them. The other was because I just didn't feel like going. Letih. Tak sedap badan. Malas. All added up into one feeling. Last2 saya malas nak argue anymore, I just went straight home.

But home alone, I went emo with myself. Duh~ I really felt like banging my own head into the wall. I can definitely drive myself crazy if this keep going on.

Told ya I so hate it when I go emo*scream*

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