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19 Disember
Aaaaaaaaa!!!!! Mcm mane nak balik Korea!!! Tibe2 saya rasa vulnerable amat. Kalau takde IC msia pun takde perasaan sangat. Ni RC weh. Camne saya nak balik???
Terasa nak guling2. Nak lompat2. Nak nangis2. Tapi outside nampak cool jek. Diam jek. As if takde perasaan. Kak Awin pun kate saya sungguh bagus. Kalau dia dah lame nangis. Oh hello! Saya pun nak nangis tau. Tapi tau takde sape nak tolong pujuk, maka malas bazirkan air mata =p *saya nak orang pujuk pastu tepuk2 tido cam Diyana buat ri tu =p*
Anyway, saya gi report kat Ajay, report kat Eff, report kat Encik Hamdan. Pendek kata saya report kat sume orang yang boleh direport. Semua orang macam tak risau jek. Haih~ saya ke yang cuak lebih?
Malam tu keluar dengan Aini, ex-schoolmate since darjah 1 up to form 3. Makan and borak2 kat Secret Recipe since nak kluar skali dengan Nurul but dia kne part time situ, soo... Best gak hangout dengan member2 lame. Teringin nak buat reunion TMS. Oh sungguh cool bile bleh jumpe balik people yang korang kenal since hingusan. See how much they've changed. Saya waktu kecil sungguh memalukan okeh. Tanak cerita lagi.
One more thing, my niece Dini, officially hates me. Ceh!! Seriously, dia tanak ikut saya langsung. Saya cuit jek dia menjerit. Protes. Tapi cellphone saya dia nak. Wallet saya dia nak. Mainan yang saya belikan dia nak. Suruh ikut saya dia tanak. Cehh!! Tanak sudah!!! Tanak kawan Dini dah!!! *go to a corner and sulk* Honestly, mane aci. Diorang maen dengan Dini lebih. Memang la dia tanak ikut saya dah. Uh~
Kk. Saya dah kne bersiap nak pergi jalan2 dengan keluarga. Saya rindu bilik saya di Korea. Rindu PC saya. Rindu LCD 19" wide screen saya. Rindu hi-speed broadband megapass.
Till then =)
18 Disember
Flight sangat bosan dan sangat slow. Delayed sebab snowing. Maen pusing2 satu airport tu pegi cuci flight dulu before take off. 6 hours 20 minutes terasa sangat lame dalam flight tu. Haihh~
Then dalam pukul 4 lebih tu diorang serve sandwich cam biasa. Tuna my favorite. Dalam pukul 4.30 tu diorang dah start descending sket. Saya pun sibuk la maen survey2 ape ade kat bawah. Banjir lumpur, bukit yang dah gondol, bla bla bla. At first diorang kata nak landing 5.20 tapi pukul 5 dah announce suh cabin crew duduk untuk landing. As dia descend lower, both my ears hurt. Tekak rasa loya amat. Saya kata pada Moshitta, "Wak, nak muntah." Moshitta suruh tahan. Tahan la. Telan liur banyak2. And flight pun landing dengan selamatnya. But as soon as I got up from my seat, sume benda di tekak tadi terasa naek ke atas. Moshitta reached for air sickness bag but he's a second too late I guess.
Ok. It was awkward. And I don't think I made a good first impression. I didn't look good since I just got off a 6 hour flight. I didn't sound good since I got a sore throat. And I didnt smell good since i just vomited all over myself. Ok. I exaggerated. I didn't vomit over myself. But whatever.
And then there came the savior of the day : ABG AMMAR. Oo yeahh!!! Nasib baik ade Abg Ammar yang memang peramah. Kalau tak memang pengsan di situ dan2 tu jugak ok. Sangat ler paisey nye.
*ok. to be continued
Quickie Before Flight
Monday
There are 2 times when you almost always miss people most.
1. When it's raining or when it's cold.
2. When you are sick.
Well, outside is minus 2 degrees and I got a sore throat. Does it count as an excuse to miss somebody =p
I know it's just 2 days since the winter break started but I can't seem to able to stop myself from logging in to doumi.dongyang to check my grades. Ok, CAM and graduation project is not going to be up in another week since we haven't even submit our projects but I keep thinking that maybe other subjects may be up already. Damn. Maybe I should just chill for a week or 2 and do something else instead of stressing myself over the results.
Ok, checklist final things to do on Monday.
Losing the Excitement
Birthday Wishlist
1. Sony PSP in lavender
I've been wanting this since a few months ago, but people were saying that it's still pretty new so you can't play downloaded games with it. You need to buy the games too. Uh well, I don't care. Somebody get me one plix =p
2. Dual Zariche +15
Ok, game talk. I wanted dual zariche since I heard Kidstar and Battousai already have one. Moshitta tried his best to trade for S grade weapon so we could upgrade it, but since we can no longer upgrade craft S weapons so it is uhm.. difficult. I mean, upgrading from A grade to ancient S grade is not cheap, you know.
3. That heart-shaped pendant I saw in Clue
I don't know if it's there anymore or not since it's the last item. And I know I should just buy it then, but buying your own jewelery is completely meaningless, don't you think? I still have a lot more things to buy than one silver pendant. Plus, birthday is coming *wink*
4. A handbag
Been ages since I got myself a new one. But I just checked Accessorize last Monday, and they got nothing nice at the moment. Well, in case you don't know what type of bags I like, uhm.. I don't like bags with long straps or handle. Because, well, I'm not that tall so wearing one will only makes me look shorter. I prefer it small. Not too small, but also not too big. Coz unlike other girls, I don't have compact powder, mascara, lip gloss and blah blah blah. The only things I put inside my bag is my wallet, my cellphone and house key.
5.
Xaxaxa =D
And oh yeah, pliz pliz pliz don't buy me another gigantic teddy bear. I was thinking of bringing Gina back home with me this winter break. Zatul alone has enough teddy bears to fill our house in university. So Gina have to go back to Malaysia and stay with Stitch and Rory. Well, Rory's like the only teddy I don't mind having around before. Because it's small and it didn't take up much space in my small room. And since it's small whenever I have a nasty tantrum I can just throw it around. Imagine having to throw Gina. It's heavy. Duh~ But anyway, no teddies again this year pliz. And no I'm not jealous of those who have stacks of it on their study desk. My study desk is where I put my books, my pc, my stationary, my snacks and a few other junks. But not teddies.
Uh, one more thing. Last night I dreamt that Moshitta bought me an iPod shuffle for my birthday. In blue I think. Well, since I'm no fans of iPod shuffle, I didn't even know if they've got one in blue =D. Haha, but to Moshitta : I don't want an iPod shuffle! And don't buy me one of the above things. It's not for you to buy =p
And to those who think the presents are too expensive, uhm.. can't you like throw in a few bucks each person so that you people can buy it for me plix. Everybody in SE can give like 10000 won (USD 10) each person and then you can get me the zariche. Brilliant idea, right? No? Oh ok then. Just don't kick me out of the clan. I don't want to have to join IG :D
Kk I need to go to the bath and get ready to go over to Norsi's. We need to finish our graduation project today.
Till then =)
The Visit From a Friend
Anyway, thanks Zora for visiting. I promise I'll write in English from now on so you can understand me :p.
At 12.39
Saya nangis lagi malam ni.
Teresak-esak lagi.
Boleh tak kite berhenti bicara tentang hal ni?
Kerana saya betul2 perlu berhenti menangis.
A Bunch of Stories
A Thing to Share
ayie : weh
ayie : page brape a?
Guling2 saya dan Azman gelak. Hello~~ Dah banyak gile cikgu ajar membebel kat depan suh ikut, dia baru nak tanye page brape. Hampeh sungguh.
Takde ape nak cakap sebenarnye. Just wanna share something about me.
Saya selalu rasa lonely yang amat bile cuaca sejuk/angin kencang/hujan ribut. Lonely yang membuatkan saya takut nak tido seorang. Saya pun tak tau sejak bile saya begini. Mungkin sebab pernah suatu masa, saya terpaksa jalan pulang sendiri melalui lorong yang gelap pada waktu malam ketika taufan melanda. Saya ingat lagi waktu itu kesejukan daki bukit yang tinggi. Angin kuat sampai bergoncang pokok sekitar. Honestly saya sendiri rasa nak terbang, ok. Certain people suke tido waktu macam itu. Mungkin kerana sejuk maka bleh tido lena. Saya pun pernah rasa begitu. Tapi sekarang tak lagi. Semakin kuat angin kat luar, semakin saya tak boleh tido. Trauma kot. Haha.
Kk. Till then
Shopping!!!
Oh, semalam saya ke COEX Mall. But for the first time saya ke COEX, saya tak pergi window shopping. I didn't go into Teenie Weenie. I didn't go into Giordano. I didn't go into Soul21. I didn't even go into Accessorize. Even when I went to Clue next door for Pkah's necklace and pendant. Baik kan saya? I focused on what I have to buy, knowing that kalau saya masuk kedai2 laen itu, jawabnye saya rambang mata tengok winter coats :p
Pastu masuk Enter6. Tak best pun Enter6 ni. Tapi saya tengah cari souvenir kan? So, cukup syarat jek la masuk. Takde ape yang menarik. Mahal gile plak tu. Pastu gi Megabox. Oopss!! Bukan tengok wayang :p. Dulu kat Megabox tingkat bawah tu ade iRiver shop. Tapi bile saya pergi kali ni, kedai tu dah takde. Instead ade sweets cafe. Duh~ Lame bangett dah tak pergi COEX. And kat atas tu ade a very cool M-Station where u can watch tv and play internet. Lawa sebab everything is in white.
And then jumpe Qila, Dayu ngn Ejat kat The Body Shop. Diorang tengok perfume. Saya pun tengok gak. Eheh~ Tapi tak beli pun. Tak berminat. Tapi kan, kenape bile tengok harga kat sini 15000 won saya rasa murah, tapi bile kat Malaysia Rm40+ terasa mahal? Adekah sebab 15000 won kat sini bleh bli 3 meals, tapi RM40 kat Malaysia bleh bli 10 meals? Susah rupenye jadi teenagers yang membesar kat Malaysia sebab kene mengorbankan 10 meals untuk beli sebotol perfume. Apatah lagi celak, maskara, lip gloss dan sebagainye. Lucky me, I'm not the kind of person who cares about those stuff. At least not until I have to.
After that we visited UniQlo. Reminded me of The Reject Shop. But since I'm in no mood to shop for clothes, I went on my own to Link'O. Cari hadiah Totin. See, Tot!! I've got your present :p And then, Mc D and Lion lepak a shop *they're obsessed with Apple* while saya, Dayu, Ejat and Qila went to shop for the rest of my things. Pkah's necklace and pendant at Clue. And later on after Maghrib, we went to Hyundai's department store, next door. To those yang kaya sket biasa shop at Hyundai, while teenagers spent their money at COEX. Tapi since saya found nothing kat COEX, terpaksa la masuk Hyundai. Weee~ I just love their shining floor and sleek decor :p
Jalan2 Hyundai jap. After beli hadiah gi dinner. Jumpe balik McD ngan Mira kat Paris Croissant tengah makan kek. Later on gi lepak Baskin Robbins. Then baru balik.
Sampai Kochok lepak CanMore dulu. Baru balik rumah. Penat dan sungguh sakit pinggang.
Dayu : Tu la. Awak tengah melalui proses penuaan ni.
Qila : Entah. Awak tak cukup kalsium ni.
Damn. Argghh~~ Betul ke tak cukup kalsium?? Uh Farini... bile nak blaja minum susu ni????
Mimpi
Mimpi mengong.
Hahahahahahahaha~
ROFLMAO
As if ler sangat.
Ceh.
Kk nak gi COEX.
Sape nak ikut?
Luahan
Sungguh tertekan ok.
Pressure gile.
And as if that's not enough, saya pegi jalan2 friendster.
Oh, hebat, Farini.
Clap! Clap!
I never knew I could be that helpful to myself.
More claps!
Oh, ok.
It's not the time to be sarcastic and mean.
Umm.. well.
A friend suggested that I quit worrying and just be myself.
Problem is : I don't think I'm ok as myself.
Ok as a friend.
But what about anything else?
You don't think so too, do you?
And I'm upset now coz I spent hours searching for presents but ended up with nothing.
Nothing that is even acceptable.
I envy Kelly a lot...
Sigh.
Building self-confidence is definitely nowhere near English-Communication easy.
Guilty
Arghh
Quickie
Tadi tengok drama korea. Delightful Girl Chun Hyang.
A Story To Tell
Hello Cruel Winter
Then I joined my clannies went for Queen Ant raid. Raid yang super leceh. But got tons of drops. I picked up a d-grade sword and enchanted it up to 8 before it evaporated. Wanted to go for more raids but it's Moshitta's turn to cook. So I decided that while waiting for him, I'm going to upload the Azman's group presentation for them. Tried changing the file name *so that they won't be having "GABUNGAN MENJADI TRANSFORMERS" as their file name on the internet* but couldn't. In fact, I couldn't access the file in any ways. Damn. Tunggu diorg balik kelas maths baru tanye.
Ooo.. ok. Last Saturday night, we got annual dinner at Seoul World Cup Convention Hall. Seating list were bad. Table arrangements were worse. Food was plenty. But ade sosej and daging itik yang tak tau datang dari mana. All over... let's just say it was less than last year. Our batch's video even kne stopped halfway sebab nak kejar masa. Tanak komplen panjang. The good part of it is that I got to sit with Moshitta, Scarsion and Scarsion's Choco Ball Queen :p Well, ok, in the seating list, I was supposed to sit with Scarsion's Choco Ball Queen at one end of the hall and Moshitta at the other end. But Moshitta changed his seat and Scarsion came to sit with his queen. So, yeah, at least it was nice and not that boring.
3 Things to Tell
Tadi saya ade sesi meluah perasaan dengan my lil sis, Kiki. Meluahkan sume benda yang saya simpan sejak semalam. Response pertama Kiki :
Admittedly, ni kali pertama saya tengok Kiki mencarut direct. Saya pun tak pernah mencarut tau. Kiki kata pengaruh anasir Sunway. Cehh~ Nevertheless, at least she cares. And at least saya bleh bagitau dia sume bende yang saya rasa semenjak semalam. And the moment saya luahkan semuanya, I felt like my heart was going to explode. Badan saya menggeletar sikit. And baru saya sedar how mad I was about the whole situation sebenarnya. And to finally actually have someone to confide things to... you won't understand how it feels. Lucky me Kiki grew up 10 years in girls' school. So she completely understands me. Ok, Ki, balik nanti aku blanje ko TGIFridays k. Ape? Nak baju? Kasut? Bleh2. *padahal seblom2 ni kalau dia kata nak pun saya belikan jek. ceh*
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Um.. pagi tadi borak dengan Su. And then she said this :
Therapy
Rahsianye??
Fries as therapy.
It's just soooo Farini-ish.
Some people takes chocolate when they are down. I do too, sometimes. When I was younger, it was always Vochelle *no-nuts!* with Cokes. Sebab waktu itu that was like the only thing I could afford to buy. I was still a school girl, kan? Duit belanja pun papa dengan mama yang bagi. You might say that Vochelle and Cokes berharga lebih kurang sama dengan sekotak fries, but, when I say fries as therapy, it doesn't mean a box of them. It's 2. And sometimes 3. So, no. I couldn't afford it. Besides, it's not like mama nak kasik saya lari gi Summit by myself everytime saya emo. Saya kan kecik lagi time tu. Haha :D
Tapi bile dah besa I can afford to go to some extend to make myself happy. Semalam I was even thinking of going to Yongsan today untuk beli PSP. Just so I'll feel a bit better *ceh. alasan semate :p* And so malam tadi, sejuk2 saya keluar cari fries. Dengan midsummer baby. Though dia at first tak tau kenapa saya moody, dia layankan jek teman saya though malam tadi sejuk gile. *thx T.T*
Umm.. ok. Hari ni sungguh sejuk. Dah winter ke ek? Sebab weather forecast menjangkakan snowing this coming tuesday. Bet it's not going to be hard. Just light snow and ice jek kot. But get your shoes ready for a slippier road, friends =) *I want my snow boots plix!*
Well, ok. That day kan, there's this post at bulletin board fs that caught my eyes. Nothing serious or anything. But interesting. Here goes :
You (that means everyone who reads this) are given one chance to ask me one question.
[edited] Saya spent half an hour kat saloon tadi. Teman midsummer baby potong rambut. Dah seminggu dia bising2 nak potong ke tanak. Last2 trim sket jek. Tapi nampak la pendek sket compared to dulu. Nampak lagi budak2 sket. Ahahaha~ Hilang dah muke matured awk :p
Child's Play
Aaaaaaaaaaaa~ Siryes saya dah malas join PERMAINAN KANAK-KANAK ni. Bercakap dengan orang perempuan memang ibarat join flaming kat flame pit. Sampai bile2 pun tak abes. Haihh~ *bercakap bajet diri sendiri bukan perempuan :p* Dah ar. Kalau nak sangat menang, hah, amek! AMEK!! Puas ati??
Opps, teremo lak pagi2 camni. Emo dari malam bawak ke pagi. Emo sampai dah tade perasaan terhadap bende2 laen lagi. Mahupun result paper Applied Maths yang macam bengong malam tadi. Haihh~ Dari saya menyemakkan kepala pikir benda2 remeh ni, baek concentrate buat graduation project yang nak kena hantar 2 minggu lagi. Tak pun prepare untuk presentation refrigerating and air conditioning technology next week. Kamu semua boleh NYAH dari kepala saya sekarang juga!
Dah. Nak bersiap gi test circuit untuk graduation project.
Entry Jiwa Kacau
Pepero Day
Semalam ialah Hari Pepero. And I was a bit busy that I didn't get the time to wish everyone a Happy Pepero Day. Anyway, Happy Belated Pepero Day =))) Thanks to everybody yang took the time and effort to buy me one. And to those yang tak dapat, make sure next year buat early request, k? Just so I won't miss you out. To McD, Ejat, Qila, and Dayu yang complaint apsal korang punye kecik dan tak colourful : WEH, SILE JANGAN MEMANDANG RUPE. KORANG PUNYE TU LEBIH SEDAP TAU. BETTER THINGS COME IN SMALLER SIZES APE. CONTOHNYE, MCD :p
part of the peperos I gave out
part of the peperos I got
bukan milik saya :p
milik saya :p
Ok, abes crite pepero. Esok saya exam. Presentation satu ape pun tak siap lagi. Nota pun baru siap buat. Kejap lagi baru nak hafal. Uh~
[*edited*] oh ye, saya sayang pepero itu. Rasa tanak makan jek :p
So, let's get busy :D
Early Bird
Tapi siryes saya tak suka isi borang yang leceh. Especially the part yang suruh anda write (read : boast) tentang diri anda. Haih~ Leceh nk pikir. Macam mana anda menyatakan semua sifat baik yang ade pada anda (so that they'll consider your application) without sounding like a boastful cow. What is your plan after graduating from Korea University? What kind of question was that? Saya nak kawen dan menjadi surirumah tangga. Boleh? :p Kidding mens. Saya nak sambung master okeh. Or rather, saya KENE sambung master.
But honestly, saya benci bile saya kne buat keputusan mcm ni. Last time masa pilih aliran time form 4 pun, papa yg decide sy nk pilih aliran ape. Turned out saya dapat tekno. Cool. Time pilih matriks pun, saya ikut kawan2. Mane mereka pilih, itu yang saya pilih. Gi Korea? It's not the choice I made. Instead, JPA yang buat keputusan itu untuk saya. Course saya sekarang? Gi tanye bdak2 lineage. Diorang yang beriye2 suruh saya amek. Jangan silap. Bukan itu maksudnye saya tak buat pilihan saya. Saya pilih juga. Saya pilih nasihat kawan mane satu yang saya nak dengar. Kan pilih gak tu. Besides, kadang2 orang sekeliling kite knal perwatakan kite, lebih dari kite knal diri sendiri.
Ok2, saya tau it was early Saturday morning. A nice, cool one to laze inside the duvet till the sun is completely up, tapi.......:p Dan saya gi call Dina though Malaysia waktu tu was only nearing 6 a.m. Takpe, dia budak medic. Kne la praktis untuk get ready kne panggil time2 tengah tido. In case ade emergency. Haha :p Dalam ngantuk2 Dina ceramah panjang pada saya. Haihh~ Lame tak dengar dia membebel. Hurm...
I'm sorry, girl, but you missed out
Well, tough luck, that boy's mine now
We are more than just good friends
This is how the story ends
Dan bile saya kata I'm sorry, trust me, I honestly do.
1st Tutoring Class
Break
This morning when I finally get out of the shower, it was already 9.05a.m. Biasa la klas hari Selasa. Nak kena explain lagi skali ke? Dalam saya tengah bersiap pakai baju, kemas bed, *Sebab midsummer baby nak datang. Kalau tak tunggu balik kelas jek baru kemas. Haha :p* Saya call Azman, nak tanye cikgu dah datang ke. Cuak gak sebab Azman tak angkat. Hantar message kata kalau cikgu datang sile message saya. Dan2 tengah taip tu, datang message dari Hanis dengan ayat yang sebijik sama dengan ayat yang saya nak tulis kat Azman. Kalau kyosu dah datang message aku. Duh~ Sume orang lambat. Exam Automotive ok kot. Just kantoi time dia suruh bahagikan truck mengikut kegunaan. Takde pun dalam nota saya, jadi, kite bantai suda~
Mesti anda tertanye2 kan kenapekah dah lame saya tak update? Kan dah kata saya busy amat. Starting with Saturday. I'm so not gonna talk about my Applied Maths exam. Cukup sekadar kat soalan kata 160 tapi saya kire 150. Haih. Basic careless mistake yang budak darjah 1 buat. Lepas exam ade shooting untuk video batch. Lari2. Lompat2. Petang tu ade baking class kat bilik Su. Abes saya angkut oven, mixer ngan piping set sume ke sana. Malam tu lak jamuan Hari Raya KUK. Makan sampai sendawa jintan ngan ketumbar. Ahahaha~ Balik tu aktiviti melepak bersama girls. Takyah la cerite panjang ok?
Esoknye siege Gludio Castle. Our castle. Siege yang menakutkan. Nasib mic saya rosak. Kalau tak confirm satu ally dengar saya menjerit kat ventrilo. Castle bocor sampai throne room. Kitorang terpaksa play defensive stance belakang pintu. Lepas siege tu, saya start tolong midsummer baby siapkan model untuk graduation project dia. Busy sampai ke malam. Precisely the thing that took up all my time up till today. Malam tadi after siapkan semua benda, kitorang go online untuk raid. Stay up sampai pukul 1.30 pagi. Tapi lepas tu pun tidur tak brape nyenyak. Sebab sejuk sangat. Uh~
Oh ye. Mulai next week, saya akan take Applied Maths class on Wednesday instead of Monday. Sebab Monday tu saya kene buat tutoring. So kelas Applied Maths tidak bosan lagi :) *sebab bleh usha midsummer baby :p*
Enough talking about myself. Let's talk about other things. Um.. precisely pasal what happen to this friend of mine. Not sure if she wants to be exposed to the world. Trust me, she is popular enough without having me to mention about her in my blog. Ok, here I'll talk about what I think of the whole thing.
Saya honestly sungguh rasa shocked. Reading everything he/she said. Wujud gak orang yang macam tu rupenye. Ok, I'm a heavy gamer. Kalau gi forum l2w tu, flame memang tahap entah ape2. Tu baru kat section Server1. Belom lagi gi tengok kat Flame Pit. But that is game. At least diorang gaduh kutuk mengutuk sebab they pissed each other ingame. But ape la sangat yang my friend buat pada orang tu sampai macam tu skali dia nak kutuk. Kenal pun tidak. At least in game, kalau hari ni flaming macam ape, besok kalau dah handholding dah ok dah. Everybody knows that those flaming is just in game. Nothing personal.
Saya takde la rapat gile dengan kawan itu, tapi dia tetap seorang kawan. Yang saya kenal dari umur saya 8 tahun. And saya rasa even kalau saya tak kenal dia skali pun, I'm going to take her side. Sebab obviously, orang baik takkan kata orang lain jahat kan? Saying bad things to others just proves that you are the one who's bad. And in my opinion, you just sound like another non-factor, attention-seeking whore. Ape pun yang anda dapat bile buat camtu ek? Does every bad words that come out of your mouth actually increase your IQ by 10? Or does it increase your CGPA by 0.5? Or does it increase your paycheck by 100 bucks. No. It won't make her look worser and it won't even make you look better. Saying her stupid won't make u anymore smarter. Saying her coward won't make u anymore braver *hell, u are not even brave enough to put your name. sape yang sembunyi skarang??* Saying her cheap won't make u anymore precious. Jadi ape sangat yang kamu dapat ek? Kepuasan sebab dapat menegakkan ego? I don't know. And I won't bother to find out. Coz I am never u.
Dah. Penat membebel panjang. This is what I captured on my way home from school.
Bright yellow leaves of autumn :)
Before leave nak kate HAPPY BIRTHDAY IJAT SAYANG!! *ahahahha :p*
Sleepless
I HATE IT WHEN I CAN'T GO BACK TO SLEEP!
Benci!
Benci!
Coz I'm going to have to be alone in the middle of the night (Ok, it's 6.30. Takde la malam sangat. But, whatever)
And I'm so not going to study maths.
Ok, there's something in my mind yang menyebabkan saya tak bleh nak pegi tido balik.
Jadi perlukah saya mengejutkan seantero persatuan pelajar malaysia korea untuk sama2 menemani saya yang tak bleh tido ni?
Jawapannye mesti la tak, kan? Mau saya kene ban time annual dinner karang. Besides, sape la sangat yang nak stay awake di pagi nan dingin ni. Batchmates2 yang supposed ade paper besok pun sume lena diulit mimpi sudeh.
Pat myself on the head.
Hug myself tight.
Tell myself, "Everything's ok."
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But still, I can't go to sleep.
Demm~
Ada Apa Dengan November
1st day of November greeted Seoul with a chilly wind sweeping around the city. Outside, the sky is a clear blue with specks of clouds here and there. One may easily mistook it as one of those bright summer day. But in truth, it was a windy, cold autumn's. Playing on the speaker is the song Sembunyi by Misha Omar and Andy Flop Poppy. I still am wearing my pink jumper over my black sweater though I've been home since an hour ago. My room is as always. Messy. The marking of exams period.
Um.. well, teknik penulisan makin teruk kan? Whatever. I'm not gonna be an author. Or an English teacher. Malam tadi I went emo. Kerana saya tak jumpa buku teks sequence control saya at the time I needed it. Duh~ Saya tengah pujuk Adeeb crite problem dia while doing the circuits and saya tak ingat the output address for a word type data. The book was nowhere to be seen. I rummaged through the drawers and everywhere else I could think of. And the tension add up when Adeeb refused to tell what's up with her. Dan perut saya lapar. Haaihh. I closed all applications, ignore every messages and buzzes and nudges and went straight to bed.
Midsummer baby's been super busy these few days. Bdak elektronik ade 3 modules to be done before semester ends. And they've got graduation projects and reports and bla bla bla. Jadi untuk mengisi masa lapang saya yang makin melambak2 sekarang ni, I decided to take part in the tutoring project. Got the tutees names just now. 3 1st year guys. Mesti la 1st year kn? As if a 2nd year nak ajar another 2nd year. Duh~ Hopefully I'd feel less lonely then.
There's a few things up my schedule this November. Ade birthday papa. Birthday Ejat. Birthday *heart*Ijat*heart* :p Hehe. Hujung minggu ni ade Jamuan Hari Raya KUK. Next 2 weekends ade Annual Dinner PPMK. Dan seperti yang sebelum2 ni, guys, especially to juniors yang baru sampai, be alert! Coz macam tahun2 yang sebelumnya, Seoul City will once again be invaded by Ppaeppaero this 11th of November!!! Yaaaayyy~~
Well, uhm, Ppaeppaero Day ialah hari di mane we buy Ppaeppaero for other people. Tak kisah la best friends ke, batchmates ke, classmates ke, *ek ehem2* ke. And pada hari ini ade banyak ppaeppaero yang dibungkus lawa2 belaka. Ade yang ade teddy dan bla bla. Oh well, originally benda ni just taktik syarikat ppaeppaero tu nak naekkan selling ppaeppaero jek. But disebabkan hari ppaeppaero ni semakin famous di kalangan masyarakat korea, pada hari ppaeppaero nanti, syarikat laen pun turut sama jual ppaeppaero.
Apekah itu ppaeppaero, bagi yang berada di Malaysia :p
Ini ialah contoh sekotak basic ppaeppaero yang anda boleh jumpe di kedai2 pada hari2 biasa. Dalam erti kata laen, ppaeppaero merupakan sebatang biskut bersalut coklat. The one I like most is the one yang ade kacang2 kat coklat dia tu. Biasanye dalam kotak kaler hijau :p
Ini pula ialah contoh ppaeppaero yang boleh dijumpai pada hari2 biasa. Cantik kan. I remembered 2 tahun lepas saya dapat yang kotak besa punye dari Bat :p. But take my words for it, yang besa2 tu confirm tak sedap. Sebab biskut jek besa, tapi coating coklat dia sket jek. In the end, ppaeppaero tu cume rasa tepung biskut. Haha~ Nak belikan saya yang besa, bleh jek. Tapi possibility untuk saya makan ppaeppaero tersebut ialah next to zero la. Jadi la macam Zatul yang belikan saya ppaeppaero kotak hijau tu dalam kotak besa. Haha. Puas sungguh makan :p.
And this year, Ppaeppaero Day ialah pada weekend. Haaaihh, tak dapat lagi nak mengepau oppa2 del yang ade tu. But in the contrary, kerana hari itu ialah weekend, takde excuse bagi junior2 sekalian untuk tidak membeli untuk saya okeh. McD!! Saya mau ppaeppaero. Ejat kalau tak bagi, saya cancel birthday present. Haha. Blackmail baik punye :p. Kidding mens. Kalau nak bagi, bagi la. Kalau tanak tu up to u. But I know that I'll give out a lot. Like I always do. So watch out if you are one of the lucky ones to get it from me :)
And oh, I remember. The first ppaeppaero I got from midsummer baby is the yellow-brown box. The one which the chocolate is inside the biscuits instead of outside as a coating. The one yang ade jual kat vending machine kat LEI tu :p
Well then, see u =)
Busy Week
Semalam saya baru siap buat report Applied Maths malam tadi. Dan ye, saya buat atas kertas kaler pink :p. Bestu kertas A4 putih dah abes. Rasa2 cikgu tu terima tak ek? Ke dia nak suruh saya salin balik? Gile banyak tu. Malam tadi amek masa sejam siapkan satu soalan. Dah siap pastu tengok jawapan salah, kne buat balik. Sungguh mencabar kesabaran. Bayangkan dah brape puluh partial fraction dibuat nak dapat kan sebutan yang betul. Keluar semua cos, sin, exponential entah ape2, tengok2 salah. Buat balik dari atas. Lagi menyampah kalau ade partial integration. Argghh.. sungguh jeles dengan Kiki yang tak payah susah2 kire bende bukan2.
여자는 그런 것 있잖아요. 애인이 생기면 같이 하고 싶은 것.
Don't girls always have those kind of things? The things they want to do together with their boyfriends, if they have a boyfriend.
Umm.. well. Saya tak pernah pulak fikir bende2 macam tu? What about you? But well, kalau nak suruh saya list down kan what would I like to do together.. Umm.. let's think about it.
1. Go to theme parks or zoos or just parks.
Practically any place that reminds me of childhood. Actually ade banyak tempat yang saya pergi and nak pergi waktu kecik, tapi bile dah besa dah tak pergi. And I can't go with friends sebab nanti diorang kata saya macam budak kecik. Duh~ But IF I have a boyfriend, saya akan drag dia ikut saya. Hahaha. Tak kisah la kalau dia nak kata saya macam budak2. 연애는 원래 유치한 거다. Love is originally childish.
2. Fishing/Picnics.
Pelik kan? Entah. Fishing cam bes jek. Only that no one is going to come with me kalau saya kata nak pergi. While waiting nak dapat ikan tu, boleh bersandar kat pokok, reading. Ooppss, lelaki jarang membaca. Hurm.. And then bawak kain checkered merah putih tu jadi alas duduk. Ade bakul makanan. Hahaha~
3. Rowing.
Naek sampan kat tasik macam dalam tv tu :p *dasar pengaruh tv. haha* Ok la, kalau tak rowing sampan pun, at least bot yang kayuh2 tu. Tak pun naek gondola around Venice ke.... Oh, romantik sungguh. Bluweekk :p Jauh sungguh berangan. Padahal dok Korea jek.
4. Painting.
Saya suke painting. Even when I'm bad at it. Seriously, painting saya tak pernah jadi. Tapi saya suke jek nak maen dengan kaler. Especially tengah2 autumn ni, pokok tengah penuh dengan daun merah kuning dan hijau. Bes kalau buat painting.
Umm.. yang laen tak tau lagi. Nanti saya fikir okeh. By the way, pasal idea picnic tu, Alin gi la suggest kat papa nak picnic winter ni. Bleh bawak Dini skali. Gi Bekuk ke. Memane la. Dah lame tak gi bercuti tau. Haaihh~
Quote of the day : 복스럽게 먹는 여자가 아름답다 A girl who eats with appetite looks prettier
Sunday Siege
Saya baru lepas mandi. Typical Sunday. Mandi lepas siege. Was great. The siege, I mean. Goddard slalu tak bosan macam Gludio. Being the most precious castle. Haaaiihh~ I hope C6 comes soon. Then we can take Rune Castle. And I'm going to be Lady of Rune. Sounds nice, right? Haha. Berangan lebih. Clan of the leader of ally always get the best castle. Not fair. They should give it to the best clan instead. Uh~ Scarsion, nanti bile ko naek jadi leader, sila gulingkan Essex dari takhta. Ok no? :p
Hari ni open house umah Lion-Ain. Rasa berat lak nak gi. Sebab pertama : no one is coming with me. Nanti saya segan gile macam time gi rumah McD hari tu. Sebab kedua : hari hujan =). Rainy days always is the best excuse not to go out. Haha. Tapi stay at home pun tak tau nak buat ape. Kalau saya gi buat kek nanti Kelly menjerit sebab tak tunggu dia. Ape lagi. Mari sambung maen Diner Dash Flo on the Go sampai abes. I'm at level 47. Struggling to get another expert score.
Tapi pun.. saya rasa nak keluar jalan2. Nak Krispy Kreme. Ejat's birthday is coming. I wanna go and get her something. Dalam erti kata laen, saya nak pergi Myeongdong. Umm.. And there is this nice movie showing. Been wanting to see it since ages. And I want to check Converse out. Tapi, exam is coming. Haaihh~
아파도 아프다고 할 순 없고
사랑해도 사랑한다고 할 수는 없다
되게 불쌍하지?
Busy Busy Busy
Busy Busy Busy
In the meantime, schedule saya dah packed. Dalam jangkamasa terdekat ni, umm.. esok exam japanese language and test circuit for graduation project and dinner umah Dira, lusa baking with Kelly (yaayy!!), Sabtu ade karnival sukan PPMK. Bercakap pasal karnival sukan, saya tak letak name untuk maen ape2 pun. Ye, saya kaki bangku. Sekian terima kasih. Ade ke Dause suggest saya maen lari dalam guni. Dia kata nanti orang tak nampak saya lari. Dalam ertikata laen, guni itu lebih besar dari saya. Cehh. Ha ha ha hampagas~
Umm.. dalam jangkamasa panjang lak, Sabtu minggu depan lagi ade exam Applied Maths, minggu depannye lagi exam Automotive Engineering, minggu depan2 nye lagi Refrigerating and Air Conditioning Technology. Pffftt~ Sebulan exam...
Actually tak abes study lagi untuk paper esok. Hirakana dah ok dah. Takde la terer, but at least bleh la tulis. Walaupun terkial2. Chinese character? Umm.. rasanye sume dah blaja time kat SNU dulu. Tinggal korek from the back of my mind. Korek memory yang elok2 jek. Yang buruk2 tu sile delete terus dari recycle bin okeh.
I did tell you my mood is a bit low, didn't I? Umm.. takpela. Lepas tido ok kot ni. Meanwhile, saya nak share this pic yang saya sangat suke. Walaupun orang dalam gambar ni tak suke.
And here too, nak share this video by Seo Nyeo Shi Dae. Admit it. They all look beautiful.